Hey there fuzzies, get yourself some popcorn and your reading glasses, cus this journal's gonna be a doozy.
I want to start by addressing a topic that's caused me quite the bit of depression of late and has really ramp up my anxiety and overall productivity with artwork.
Vocal Non-Preferences
So, the thing is, when you tell someone your preferences... ask yourself... why? Why do you tell someone whether you like x, y, and or z? Usually it's because, you want them to know! You want them to understand that "this is what I like and don't like" and from there you're usually hoping they share in that belief or at the very least can come to understand your position and respect it.
But there's a problem when you do this knowingly to a person who doesn't have the same preferences as you and you want them to know you don't like what they do. It causes a divide. It causes... problems. Usually one might do this in the hopes of getting said person onto there side of the line. Saying you don't like X,Y or Z to someone who does will basically translate to "I don't like what you do and I think you're wrong" an instant line in the sand similar to an argument (and can usually develop into one). In the end, the purpose of you stating your preference, or rather what you DON'T prefer, is an underhanded way to push your own preferences onto others. Whether you think about this or not, that's what happens.
So, why am I talking about these X,y, and z things anyhow? Why am I talking about Vocal Non-Preferences? Well, it's become quite an issue of late for me. As I stated before I've been in quite the throngs of depression and anxiety which has killed my productivity. As an example I lost almost all of last week because my anxiety was so bad I could not touch my tablet.
I'm usually a pretty resolute guy. I know I like weird shit and I draw weird things and sometimes it clashes with people. I like to draw LOTS of weird things and right now it's focused around fatal and graphic stuff. Mind you it's not ALL I do, It's just the last couple of pictures on FA (which were drawn ages ago anyhow) I draw tones of things and topics and right now I'm commissioned and enjoy to draw more of the fatal stuff. Someday I'll move onto other things to. Who knows, maybe one day I'll start focusing on another fetish entirely instead of vore (haha hard to believe I know ). But the point is, as it stands now, I'm being told almost every time I post artwork that my stuff is wrong and I should feel wrong.
That's not a good feeling. That's not constructive at all to be told "Hey, I don't like this and I wanted you to know my displeasure with your content". It it only helps to chip away at my resolve to draw.
I like drawing, I like drawing kinky weird things and sometimes it's fringe or taboo. Sometimes it's gonna not be to peoples liking. That's just par for the course in doing fetish work. But I hope you can understand how draining it is for someone like me to constantly hear how much people hate my art or how it gives them displeasure. I certainly get a lot of praise on the flip side. But the negative commentary is always on the content and never the art itself. (which I'm totally okay hearing constructive feedback on issues with how the art was made itself, like anatomy problems or perspective, lines or quality etc usually these are some of the best comments to receive and sadly the fewest I ever get).
It's quite honestly caused some very VERY bad depression for me. I haven't been able to keep my work steady because of it. I listen to what people say and while I try to shrug it off it causes a building effect.
The sad part is this isn't purposeful for most people. I understand that. I understand it's human nature to just tell people what you like and don't like. But words can really build up and hurt. Being told what I like and what I draw on a regular basis is wrong and so and so doesn't like it due to the content... it's essentially the same feeling one gets when you're told "being gay is wrong" or "your particular life style is wrong and you should feel bad" I've been through the former and it's honestly the same feeling. Imagine if you went out with friends and one of your friends or acquaintances says "Ya, I don't really do the whole gay thing. It kind of makes me feel gross and I really don't like it. Makes me want to puke really." It causes confusion, depression, anxiety. Sure, the friend might have just wanted to let his preferences been known. But it pushes a "I'm not okay with your preferences" agenda and makes you feel bad. The friend could have explained his non-preference by just saying "I'm not gay myself, but it's cool if you are." This shows he respects the other's preferences even if they clash.
It's something I've been battling with. I've never been so vocally ousted since I started drawing more fatal and graphic stuff. It's stunted my ability to draw and I really don't want that (nor can I really afford that!)
There's no constructive criticism by telling me that my particular brand of the fetish is wrong and I'm wrong for liking it.
So, When you do tell an artist your preferences keep in mind the person who makes that art also has feelings and while it might be okay to say your preferences, it might hurt the artist to know the only reason you posted was to tell them how you don't like that fetish and you wanted them to know their art was not appreciated.
I love you guys, I really do. Even the ones who don't like everything I draw. You make living on my own possible. You make being a furry a fun and enjoyable experience. But for the sake of everyone, please try to keep in mind artists are people to and your words can chip away and hurt.
I know many of you watched me in the past for art I used to do, and who knows, maybe I'll just end up splitting into a bunch of galleries to try and seperate all the different fetish work I do. But I'd rather not split galleries or split my vore preferences into two different galleries specifically.
How the fuck does Wolfblade manage a following when he does so many different fetishy materials? I don't think he has multiple accounts.
Regardless, thanks if you managed to read through the whole thing. I hope you've come to understand my position and also why art has been a bit slower than usual to make.
Now, onto another topic:
Why do I like Fatal vore?
There's a simple answer and a long answer. Simple answer: It's taboo and I have a fetish for taboo stuff.
As for the long answer, Fatal vore is kind of the default for the fetish. There's varying levels of degree of severity to the fatal vore's visualization or depiction, but for the most part Vore is by default a fatal act. Sure you can pervert it into endo and reviving and what not. But the base desire to eat another person is usually for self gain reasons. The act of eating was MADE to take from life so you could live. Survival and all that. Not everyone's into that, and that's cool, but you can't deny that vore takes the act of eating life, a usually fatal affair, and then perverts it into a fetish.
Now, this is not to say I dislike non fatal vore. It certainly is enjoyable as well! But I've just recently been wanting to express more fatal stuff and commissioners have been prevalently fatal vore(or at the very least ambiguous ). I feel it gives a lot of interesting avenues for stories and ideas in art. It's kind of why I don't draw a lot of vanilla porn, because it's overdone, it's predictable, it's unexciting. Fatal vore always has that risk vs reward feeling. It always has a bit of conflict built into the fetish. Plus it's been an interesting challenge to draw the more anatomy heavy stuff (IE bones and whatnot) but fatal vore doesn't have to include the more graphic things. Sure, there's lots you can do with non-fatal vore, or safe happy vore with no major consequences. There can be a lot of fun depicting those scenarios to. (I'm actually working on an idea where I have two separate canon comics depicting a sort of fatal vore setting and non-fatal vore setting for a zootopia or original series I want to do). But for now I really like the perverted ideas of fatal vore and sometimes the more graphic stuff (to really hammer it home).
It also is a way to express a more primal aspect of our id and let it loose. It's the same endorphin rush you might get from playing a shooter game and being told "you can shoot and kill all these bad guys because the game says it's okay and you don't have to feel bad about it. Infact you're all powerful and awesome and go get them tiger!" That's letting your id take over and giving you a safe environment to just do whatever feels good. Does that say something about my psychy? I'm sure it does, but just like how violent videogames don't cause violence. Violent fetishes don't cause violence either. (and before you say "I don't get a boner playing a shooter game" that's not what I was talking about. It's about being able to disconnect with what you're doing in order to achieve an overall experience beyond a usually limiting realistic factor.)
Vore, in general, to me has primarily been a Dom vs Sub affair in it's most primal form. I know people can get many MANY different enjoyments out of vore for vastly different reasons and it's part of why I think vore is so amazing and awesome. It's like the all fetish. Fatal vore just has that extra kick. That extra bit of oomf. Like why look at porn of two people fucking when... they can be furries! It's that extra bit of exotic flavor. Why just have vore with a belly slowly shrinking? Why not show off the bulges... why not show off what's happening inside? Why not show off what happens after? Why not have a trophy skull to show the utter humiliation of the prey and the utter domination of the predator~ Why not go all the way when society tells us it's wrong to do so!?
I can separate obviously painful acts (though I usually don't envision the digestion as painful anyhow, it just might look that way) and the whole idea that someone dies so I can enjoy the porn art for what it is. Why get philosophical over something that's obviously not trying to be? I love life and am usually one of the first people to cry in a movie when a loved character dies. But that's a different setting. That's a different place. Real life? I respect everyone's life... I don't even know if I could shoot a gun to defend myself.
But when it comes to the fetish world? To porn art? I can let loose~ I can slip into another world and another way of thinking.
Why do I like fatal vore? Because, it's Taboo and I'm free to enjoy it for all it's perverted glory!
Now enough of this, I'm hungry and everyone is food. I'm sorry you don't want to be digested, but I really want to digest you :9