Hey guys, time for another serious journal! Cause we all love these, hoh boy.
I'll get straight to the point. I've been feeling a massive disconnect with the Fandom over the past couple months, since around June to be exact. I genuinely feel as though the community I joined years ago because of it's acceptance, kindness and tolerance has turned into a safe haven for spewing hatred, clambering for popularity and censoring anyone whose thoughts oppose your own.
These 'furries' honestly believe that unless you're following the hyper sensitive hivemind, you're either a Nazi, Racist, or insert insult here. This community seemingly doesn't want you to think for yourself and improve anymore, but rather stay a perpetual victim so they have the excuse to garner attention and fit in with the popular kids. A good example of this is handing out "Nazi Furs Fuck Off" badge ribbons at cons, and if you decline them, well jee bobby you're a Nazi! In the 4 or so years I've been attending cons, I have yet to see one Nazi. Not a single one. Yet furries claim that Nazi's are threatening their mere existence at every con or social gathering they go to. I honestly wonder if any of them have stopped to think for one moment that maybe, just maybe, they are a severe minority, most of which don't even attend conventions? Nah, that'd be silly. For reference as to just how damaging these ribbons are, my fiance Jason and I spoke with a Jewish man at Anthrocon who had people sticking these ribbons to his fucking hotel door. This older gentleman simply had an interest in the history and drew historical battle scenes / uniforms. These harmless acts made him a Nazi in the eyes of several convention goers. This is okay?
Another good example of this is furry Twitter. For those of you who have yet to experience it, god bless you cause you aren't missing out on anything of value. Nothing you say, even in private, is safe from being put on blast from hyper sensitive children over on Tumblr Lite. These people hunt for any dirt they can find on you, then wait until you are at your weakest to put you on blast. For instance, without naming names, we had someone whom we respected wait for an entire year until I was in the hospital undergoing surgery to leak private logs, cropped out of context. I had people messaging me, while I was recovering in a hospital bed, that they hoped I would die from complications during surgery. Hell even some of our friends were harassed and bullied into distancing themselves from us due to gatekeepers. Does this sound like the community you all joined? One that was tolerant and kind towards all view points? 'Cause it sure doesn't look like that to me.
Some may say "Oh it's just Twitter". The thing is, you've all seen it spread to FA with their recent changes to CoC stating that those leaning right can be outright banned from the website, FA's definition here: "A hate group is one that advocates and practices hatred, hostility, or violence towards members of a designated sector of society (e.g. Nazism, KKK, ISIS, Alt-Right)." Funny how they left Antifa out of that list to prioritize hate groups that hardly, if any at all, actually use this website. Hell, I've seen users outright celebrate slapping Antifa on their profiles and not even get a second glance for doing so. Y'know, a group of individuals that goes out into the streets and mercilessly harasses others for having different opinions, even going as far as uttering chants like "The only good cop is a dead cop" and protesting against anti-pedophillia rallies claiming that pedophiles are valid individuals and "love is love". Not to mention the countless times that Antifa members have nearly beaten the life out of innocent passerbyers because they proclaimed they were a "Nazi" which makes it perfectly okay. But hey, not classified as a hate group in the eyes of FurAffinity staff. Pretty sure it fits perfectly in line with their definition of a hate group, but lets just brush that off right?
Anyways, I've been joining discords from other communities and exploring networking outside of the furry community. What's sad is a lot of the people I met were people who already knew who I was, and had left the community due to the toxicity I've mentioned above. It's kind of heartwarming but sad at the same time, like feeling as though you aren't alone in this but also feeling sad because something you once loved has turned into something so vicious and toxic. There will always be toxic individuals in every community, this I am aware of, but so far my time spent focusing on other communities has been nothing but positive for me.
Now, I'm never going to stop drawing furry art entirely because I do genuinely enjoy drawing furry characters. However I will definitely be exploring drawing more people, fantasy creatures, etc. Not only because of the way the community is headed, but because I believe it will greatly improve the quality of my artwork overall. The level of skill I've seen outside of the community has been mind blowing, and pushes me to get better each day.
As of right now... I sadly do not consider myself a 'furry'. Do I enjoy the artwork? Yes. Do I enjoy the community? As of now, no. Until things change I only see myself distancing further and further away. To be clear, this isn't meant as an attack on the community as a whole, as I know there are likeminded individuals out there. This is merely a critique and vent on what I have experienced through my own eyes from the violent, vicious and heinous acts I've witnessed over the past few months.
Thank you all for reading my little vent here. Hopefully some of you can find solace in knowing that you are not alone.