So I never thought id have to make something like this, But I do. I had to go to my therapist yesterday because I basically had a mental breakdown do to all the drama going around right now surrounding me, and many other furs you might of already seen on here or heard of.

And as per my therapists idea I am going to stop trying to just hide and wish all this away and come out and tell my side of the story.

Many of the rumors you either have heard, or will hear about me have been true. I allowed myself to get into contact with some very bad people, and in my own desperation for finding people who I could trust and be friends with online. I betrayed all of my own values, I went against my own beliefs and I was manipulated into doing things I would have NEVER done if I wasn't in the situation I was in. I met someone who at first seemed nice, friendly. A very happy go getter kinda person who seemed alot better at the whole "social" thing than me, He comforted me, made me feel better when I was down, made me feel like I was a better person. But at the same time he was slowly planting his seeds. It started with simple trades, I send this you send that kinda thing. Which at first was completely harmless for the most part, pictures that most furs could of found on twitter or what not. I showed him artwork I did, ect. Eventually this man started leading me down a path of darker themed things. Which I wont publicly discuss here but I am more than happy to talk about in private because I don't believe I have anything to hide now. This is all out in the open. The proof is in the pudding kinda thing.

This darker path is something that immediately put a bad taste in my mouth... And looking back there were very, very early red flags and signs that this wasn't going to go well for me. But it was so easy to not notice those things, to not realize the full weight of the situation when I was distracted by cutesy comments and feel good compliments that at the time, not many people were offering me.

So this person eventually convinced me with more of those same temptations and compliments like " do this thing for me and ill love you forever." "Ill give you all the things I have" ect. I let the temptation break me. I let this person take advantage of me and I gave him what he wanted. I did something I would have never done, I acted out of lust, I acted out of peer pressure, I acted in a way I have NEVER acted before, and WILL NEVER act again.

This event as many of you already know has become public. This person has leaked out all the information they had on me, and many other similar individuals. I honestly don't know the reason behind their doing this, Weather they just got off on the idea of ruining so many people's lives, or what. But when this all happened and became public I was scared, terrified out of my life. I felt like my life was instantly ruined. My identity, my sona who I have kept and had around for around the past ten years of my life, and have used as my identity online in so many places over my real identity. He was the mask I wore so I could hide behind it all, hide from the stresses of reality, my insecurities, my anxieties. And overnight this identity had been ripped away from me.

But now after talking to my therapist. And taking the first steps towards a fresh start I know that there is no point of trying to delete all my accounts, and hide away just hoping this will disappear. Maybe it would, maybe it wouldn't. But thats not the person I am. I am not the kind of person who is going to hide their mistakes and pretend they didn't happen. Because if you don't acknowledge your mistakes, you cant learn from them. And I DID learn from my mistakes.


So to all the people who I have disappointed, to all the people who once liked me but now hate me I do deeply sincerely apologize for my actions. But please understand that, That person, is NOT who I am. It wasn't who I ever was.

I was manipulated by someone who used my weak attempts at friendship, to force me to do sexual favors for him. I will NEVER allow myself to be weak like that again. I will never allow myself to be so foolish as to not realize I'm being manipulated, And I will NEVER go against my values for another person on this earth ever again.

I learned from this tragedy and I can only hope that in the future I can prove that with my good faith.




Now for the few Fans and followers I still have that care at all. I will likely no longer be taking any of my commissions. And I may go ahead and make any of my NSFW artwork, commissioned or done by myself hidden for the next few days, weeks, or foreseeable future while I figure this out. My next appointment to my therapist is in a few days and I will hope to proudly be able to report this first step to him. And I look forward to his help on leading me down my new path towards being a better person. But for now while I figure out that path, and start down it I don't want silly obstacles getting in my way. And taking the advice of a friend, I may give my artwork new direction, to try to not only distance myself from the bad times that I have been through recently, but to more importantly focus on doing what Ive always wanted to do. Drawing NSFW art is fun, and many people get to enjoy it in more ways than one. But at the end of the day its porn for the sake of being porn in most cases. And that basically turns what could be days or in some cases weeks of work towards an image down to enjoyment that will only last a few short moments for most people. This is not what I want my artwork to be. I want my art to be more than just a few short moments of joy or lust. So altho I cant say yet weather or not I will continue doing NSFW art, I can certainly say it will no longer be my main focus. So I will hopefully be posting a few new pieces of artwork, most of which I have been doing here during my hiatus as personal art here online sometime in the near future.

Thank you to whoever read this far, Thank you to anyone who is willing to hear my side of the story. I know I didn't go into all the full details but as I stated, if ANYONE and I mean ANYONE wants to know the full details of what happened. I have NO REASON TO LIE so I will be open and HONEST about every small detail that people wish to hear.