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I passed my driving evaluation and am legally allowed to drive again finally. What this means is that I can finally go wherever the fuck I want to go whenever I want to go. No more relying on other people to drive me around, though I thank each and every one of you who did. Also, this means that whenever I am done with my year being with the bridge program I can finally attempt to move out west. I'm pretty stoked and in celebration I will party like a mother fucker this weekend. Oh and I finally found a primary care physician who will accept medicaid, though the only thing I need those assholes for is a new wheelchair after seven months of sitting in this piece of shit I don't have to wait too much longer.
Black Label Society and Children of Bodom this Saturday night at the Masquerade music park. Then on Halloween I'll be cruising around town in a party bus with some old school friends for a Bad Religion show @ the masquerade going to be fucking amazing =]
Until next time
Peace out mother fuckers!!
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Leaving right now to go see the results of an MRI on a section of my back they believe to have an area of exposed nerves not inside of my spinal column. This would look similar to something or someone with spina bifida which is usually something you are born with. This isn't a pre existing condition which had them worried enough to do an MRI. I have surgery sometime this month and hopefully today will give me some incite on what to expect and when. Sorry to everyone who i have not kept up with the past few days, when I get home and settled I will reply to you all.
Much love
Cads
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I need a writing partner. Less talk, more action I'm ready to get it started. I've been ready, I just need someone who has an idea or direction. Cause if not be prepared for it to be full of emo and angsty bullshit once that's behind simply it will be just a matter of time baby. Just a matter of mother fuckin time!
I'm rock bro you ready to fucking roll? You better be cause there ain't no lookin back from me. just endless nights of pillow fights, coffee stains and razor blades
fuck dood i just fucked up brb shower!!
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Will post pics later, it dominates though thats for sure.
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http://www.funnyjunk.com/showcomment/4326702/
Beware for there be a price on ye head.
Seriously, wtf is wrong with you people. I saw one today so I came home to do a google search and found I was not only the one person to acknowledge this phenomenon. Whatever the need for it, it needs to stop ASAP...
Don't look like j beiber and please never again do I want to here him at the gym I will vomit or worse.
LULZ
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Holy shit dood. I bet you 100 bucks mine smell better and taste better. Seriously on another level at this point in time.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JQRxTtJF9e0 Go Lil Wyte Go!!
This is my smoking song and it's pretty long cause I'm like wtfz0rz... |
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This dog of steel is almost back on his feet. Upgrading to the cane here much quicker than was ever projected.
Also, you know what I find stupid? All these posts about how many pageviews somebody gets. Like are you seriously serious? I'm seriously serious that is seriously stupid. Go outside!! I love you all though still *woofs*
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I just wanted to let a few people know who I don't keep in contact with very often how I'm doing. First off, I'm finally getting better to the point where I'll be back in therapy here before I know it. I've still been getting stronger and stronger everyday, but for a while I was unable to do much with my legs due to being sick with an infection. It took me a little over 2 months to fight said infection, and in slue of things I have still managed to escape from it with little to no consequences. I'm coming up on month 6 of my recovery since my accident. I cannot believe how quickly time has gone by this year, then again I have been living in a completely altered state of reality prolly more than 90 percent of that time. Glad to say that I should be off that stuff in the next few months as I grow more tolerant to the pain in my back and legs. I've gotten this far and I don't see why I don't see myself by at least next year using a quad cane as my right leg seems to be the one that is having some more of the stability issues involving my balance. I work out hard and relentlessly despite how bad it might hurt, half the time I don't even know how bad it hurts until my medication wears off which is another reason why I have stayed on it this long. I'm not going to hurt myself, but I would much rather not feel the hurt as I'm trying to work out or do somethings involving alot of strenuous activity. Next week I will get back on a horse for the first time since my accident and I'm so lucky and grateful to have a team of therapists like I do at the Shepherd Center who went completely out of their way to locate and find places for me to enjoy horse back riding again with some of the prettiest ladies you could ever imagine =] I enjoy everything that place did for me and though I have a few regrets, I will never forget what it was that they did for me there. Took me in knowing I had no way of paying them back over a quarter of a million dollars in therapy and resources. I'm one lucky son of a bitch to be alive, and despite my current financial situation I will make it my life long goal to get my name up on that wall and to donate back every penny that was ever donated to me and to everyone who was on that list who had donated money to me when I was in the hospital. I love you all so much and think about you all the time when I am in the gym or in my house and am working hard or just recollecting on the good times I had before this happened to me and about the times I will continue to have that are absolutely going to be memorable and just as much so as the years previous to this.
Life is fucking beautiful and you can't try and tell me that it isn't. A very special friend of mine comes to visit here this month and I'm nervous as hell and very excited at the same time =] I love you!! Also, I will be at FF next month and hope to meet some more new friends and put some faces on ones that I already might have known and not yet gotten a chance to unite with. Until then take care *big pitbull hugs*
Cads
ps. xavier I miss you!!
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Is literally quite possibly the best band ever arranged. There hasn't been anything like that since the 60's and like some of that even rivals this most definitely. You need to check them out if you haven't already!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v0F7WJsIyKA
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hIPp3vAVaFc
I love Tom, thank you so fucking very much for bringing it back. Against Me was and still is one of my favorite bands, but they totally changed so much over the years. I am proud to say I'm one of the few who knows what I'm actually talking about, I grew up in one of the best scenes ever and had one of the most kickass times.
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Yes you heard it here first. I am back but I didn't even know I got banned D=
Sleep is good!! Music is even better, your mediocre artwork and terrible furry literature doesn't impress me at all. Neither does your poor attempts at outing me as a "dog fucker" it only makes you and those involved look like retards with nothing better to do with your time. Instead try improving on your mediocre talents, because you'll never be as good as me xD
Cads
ps crovirus, I draw better than you do with a bic pencil, how's that make you
feel?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SHDDYVUnY6s
Anyone who is here at my page to talk trash, stir up drama, and or make an ass out of yourself will be properly reported to the admins and most likely suspended or banned. Play nice!! |
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Sleepy puppy, is ready for a new week. Going to get back on my feet here soon, I am healing up and almost ready to leave the bed!! I've had so many things try and get in my way, but I overcome all and any obstacle thrown in my way. I've got some really great people in my life who push me and continue to do so everyday. Without all of you I would have given up a long time ago. In the midst of my frustrations I discovered that I didn't lose my ability to walk, my butt muscles are finally kicking back in. It's now just a matter of getting my lower back built back up and some serious and much needed work on these legs of mine. I might not ever be able to walk again on my own, but I will damn sure try my hardest you better believe it.
This might not seem relevant to what I may do or may not do in my life. I found so much inspiration in this video and this kid's story that I cannot even describe, I say that often I don't know if that's a good thing or not. I know what it's like though and I know what it's like to feel like you might not ever be able to enjoy the things you once used to be able to enjoy. I found out that was bullshit real quick when I was taken water skiing, I never thought I would be able to do something without the use of my legs but I did it. I climbed a wall over 100 feet high with nothing but my arms, there is nothing that I cannot do with the right people supporting me. Spread the love please!!
Cads
True Inspiration
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Alot of pretty nasty things were said this morning in another rather heated argument between my roomie and I. I don't like bringing this kind of stuff to the table especially at a place like this, but I want to say thanks to everyone who was there to offer some kind words for me this morning, it means alot to me and you know I will always return the favor. It's rough when someone you spent the last 4 years of your life with beats around the bush to ignore a rather large problem at hand. It sucks worse when you got nobody to rely on to help come pick your ass up when your in a rather uncomfortable situation because people like to think it's cool to take advantage of those who are unable to defend themselves. Thanks for my dad though your a damn saint for real!!
On a side note, I love my sweet kitty!! *grins*
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I'm still hanging in there, but I am having a harder time than ever for some reason. I want to reach out artistically but I cannot find my outlet. I am stuck in shambles and feel as if I have lost alot more than I ever could have imagined. Often do I find myself bored and feeling alone, I know that is not true though I have so many great friends out there reaching out to me. Really I just want my health back, I have run into so many issues the past few weeks and I wonder if I will ever catch a break again in my life. I wish that I could go out and do more things and hang out with friends more often, it helps take my mind off of this some. My quality of life is much less, but that doesn't mean I don't appreciate or find happiness in life, and in fact I see it everywhere and so much of it that at times it's overwhelming for me and I get sad. I just want to be me again and feel like I used to feel, I don't know if that is ever going to happen or not, but I really do hope so.
I sometimes still cannot believe it I open my eyes and think that everything is okay, but then I try and get up and realize that it was all just a dream.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ufn_pUVzZBg
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I love all of you guys, I'm sorry for not keeping things up to date while I have been trying to get better. I'm still miles away from where I used to be, I can walk for short distances with a walker but still require a wheelchair, I don't have all of my feeling back and it sucks not knowing what won't or what will all I can do is hope. Thank all of you for the support and messages and emails, it was hard for me to jump onto the computer for very long and I was a bit overwhelmed with the amount of support I didn't quite know what to say and I still don't. All I know is what I need to do, and what I want to do in the future. This changed my life in more ways that I can begin to describe, I see things completely differently, the way that I always wanted to see things. It only sucks that it took this for me to be able to come to that point in my life where I know what I need to do. With that being said please my friends enjoy life for what it's really worth, this is the one chance we have at it and don't let it pass you by.
I graduated from the Shepherd Center and I am on my way home, please keep in touch as I will have alot more time on my hands. If anyone ever wants to visit it doesn't matter where your from, I'd like to see and hear from you all. Friends are never too many and always far too few!!
Cadbury
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I would like to first start by saying thank you to everyone who has supported me through this. Everyone who has donated I do not yet have the words to describe how beautiful and wonderful everyone has been during this experience for me. If there is anything I can do for you please let me know. I am still on a long road to recovery and learning how to deal with what has happened with me has been rough, I would not be able to do this without all of your support. I have been moved to a place here called the Shepherd Center where I am learning how to walk again and get control of the things I had lost in the accident. The emotions and the pain that I go through everyday I could never deal with without my friends and family. I am so grateful to even be alive and to know I have all of these wonderful people in my life gives me the strength to push myself beyond what even the doctors first thought I would be capable of doing. It's hard for me to type on a computer still and I wish I could keep a journal of my progress here, but my friends who have seen me know how far I have come in such a short period of time and it's a true blessing. I make the best with what I have left and I have no doubt in my mind now that I will recover as much as possible and hopefully then some. It's not easy to be away from home and the things you are so used to for as long as I have been, for everyone who donated and for everyone who has come to visit me I promise I will never let you all down. This has been the most life changing experience for me in a positive way though most would assume this to be a negative change in my life. Please understand that it will take some time for me to get back to where I was at before the accident. Everyday is a new challenge but everyday I feel as if I'm getting stronger and stronger. I cannot wait until the day I see you all again outside of therapy or a hospital, I want to personally thank each and everyone of you for your help. It has almost become overwhelming for me but I think I will have alot of time on my hands when I am out of here. I am alive for some reason and I do not know what that is yet, but my whole life people have told me there is something special about me and I'm here discovering that to give back to you all and then some. I love you all so much and I hope that if someone else is ever in need they get some of if not all of the love you have all given me. Until then please keep me in your thoughts as you all are in my day and and day out there isn't ever a waking moment or sleeping one when I am not thinking about you all.
Love
Cadbury
"Never let go of what you got, because it might just be all you'll ever get" - Cads
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I will be there. You can text me at 770 337 8645, I do not answer phone calls that is a rarity. I will be with some cool cats gettin silly. I'll be staying around town or at the con who knows. It'd be cool to meet some of you folks I've never met before and to see some I ain't seen in quite some time. I'll most likely be playing music somewhere. Dunno what time I will head down to the con, but I should be in Atlanta sometime around noonish give or take.
Cads
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Once again they decide to change the layout of youtube. I'd like to hear some other folks opinion on what it's like now. I honestly think it's garbage, the rating system has gone downhill like a mother fucker. Also, trying to find a link to a video your watching is now also a pain. I wonder when they will quit assfucking youtube in the utmost of unpleasant ways possible. WTF
On a side note
FWA is soon!!
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My weekend was pretty fucking intense yo. I watched things happen that were epic beyond comprehension. I enjoyed myself thoroughly and I got to hang out with some of the best looking guys I have seen in a long time. Got stoned as fuck, partied and now I am partied the fuck out. I mean there is no way to explain what just happened this weekend it's that fucking nuts you'd had to have been there. At least I has one witness Drock my brother you are fucking a true champion. I don't think there are many other furries out there that can compete with the level of extreme that we bring forth to this Mutha fucka!! I am glad that you had an awesome birthday man. Many more to come so many more!!
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It's now a new year, I do not make plans for change, those things just happen in my life as things come and go. What you can expect is more music, more connections, more stories and more fun. College is everyday closer to a ticket out of this life and into a new one. These days and minutes I utilize my time to reflect on my life and the lives of those around me in an idiosyncratic way. I constantly am expanding my efforts at becoming better on the guitar, I have neglected the banjo these past few months and even year. Yet, I have not forgotten how to play and I never will, but I will promise to pick her up more often this year and make love. I'd like to really spend more time with friends this year and introduce them more into my life. I'd also like to find someone special again ^^
To those I will see at FWA very much looking forward to it. Much love to all of my friends!!
Cads
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Merry Christmas to all of my friends. Thank you for all the wonderful and kind gifts you all gave to me throughout this year. The most special one though was the good times I got to spend with you all, the conversations, the connections it's what I live for.
I hope that you all have a wonderful and safe Christmas and may the new years bring you all good health and joy!
It is time to let this year pass and look forward to what is to come. You know everyday you are that much closer to your dreams and goals if you actually have any and I hope that you all do. As tough as life can be sometimes, just remember we can help each other out.
Love,
Cadbury
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Bought new axe, acquired new bong, becoming a beast on the guitar. Will turn into one soon too =] Had a badass time at lil bro's 21'st birthday last weekend. Like 18 furries or so invaded downtown Atlanta. Met some cool new folks, still waiting on next quarter of college to start. Working my ass off indefinitely, supervising an auditing line of about 66 employees takes a toll on me, but it's mad good money and a great work experience. I'm finally starting to break free of this chain that's been wrapped around my ankles. I still am missing something though, hopefully I'll find it sooner than later. My dogs are doing great, Dusty is such a badass and Fred is absolutely as gorgeous as ever.
Anyways, you should go subscribe to my youtube channel if you haven't already @ http://www.youtube.com/user/oceans34 I know the name isn't furry related, it also isn't related to the movie oceans11 or any of the series. In fact it came from my days of being an internet e-star in Counter Strike when I was always using the handle oceans or 4oceans which is why everyone calls me oceans lol. Anyways, I will be uploading more videos of me playing music and my dog's doing silly and random stuff etc... Fun stuff so please go subscribe and I will do the same for you in return!! |
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Recorded this a few days ago using an LTD MH-103QM hooked up to my Peavey Vypyr. Just a random rift I came up with, let me know what I can do to improve. Though I'm more than positive that half the kids here on FA wouldn't know how to pick a bale of cotton let alone a guiiiiiitar. I figured someone here might enjoy it and if you do let me know!! I love you all!!
The anger and the hate!! Trolls beware music will destroy you!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2AF6AWCyxYU
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