Hello,

Im a 26 year old incel. Like many from the sub, Ive been mocked all my life, had no sucess with women and people in general.

Right now Im a dweller in my parents home. Although its not that of a "bad" situation since here in my country its okay to live with your family until you get married (ironic isnt it?), I still live in a reality that resembles a void.

Everyday, I just live in my own small world. I watch people go to their jobs, classes, dates, appointments, etc... through my window. I honestly envy all those people.

Please dont make the assumption that I havent tried (Im still trying). I work out everyday and run every a couple of days. My passion is music and has been since I was a teenager. Since I dont have money to study it, I practice and study music myself, religiously everyday.

I have tried everything and Im still lonely. Women in general treated me really bad or mocked me. I have tried being nice, polite but not in a "nice guy way, more like just a common person would be. They either rejected me or just mocked me.

I have come to avoid people and social situations for 3 years now. I admit I hate women. Whenere I cross paths with them, I just avoid and dont talk to them, barely look at them. I have helped many women out of politeness, while avoiding as much communication (talked or body language with them)

I have come to accept my misogyny. I dont treat women bad in public or talk about them to people. I just avoid them, Im very distant with them and just act as a polite person. I dont trust them and seriously Im seeking ways to cut my libido because it brings me so much problem.

Our community is a place where people like me can vent, discuss and just share that feeling. I know there are plenty of people there who just troll or spread hate just because. As well as people who want to "help" but please bear in mind that our sub is just for VENTING. We dont want advice from people who ironically never had our problems.

As for me, I will just continue in my own journey for self improvement. I accepted that Im going to be lonely my whole life and that no woman would really like me. I have accepted it and although it feels soul-wrecking , I try to focus myself on being a great musician and getting fit.

I know I can because im disciplined, I know in the end I will achieve all my goals, and that is the only reason I keep myself alive. Many of the bad users from Incels will tell this is "cope" , but to be honest, the universe doesnt gravitate around women or having sex.

Thank you for your time