I am only 22yr... I dont think I'll ever be the same after what my first LTR gf, probably my last did to me..

After 4 years of misery of endless shit tests, drama, nagging and withhold of sex I decided to break it off to save my little sanity I was left with... only to find out that the bitch been fucking with my best friend for the countless times and also some of the so called fri3nds knew but kept it away from me....I feel like a worthless fool I've lost all the self respect

This really broke me to an extent of suicidal thoughts, I Iost all of my friends in my circle.. those two mothrfuckrs made sure everybody turned against me I was treated like a dirt and outcast .. it's been 14 months now I'm all alone and still angry but it also feels good... especially seeing some of my pussy begging getting burned the same way I did then run to the next girl, the cycle goes forth and forth

My mom still pushes me to persue relationships with women and have kids she doesn't even notice the obvious misery in my eyes all she care bout it's stupid grandchildren... As for my father I don't know whether he is some sort of purple pill he always contradict himself all the times... I don't talk to him much I just find him hard to trust

Im not even the ideal guy.. from low-middle class family, I am 5'8 tall, Skinny, small face, probably the boring nice guy with a backbone but somehow this bitches want my dick.. I tried to do the hook ups with chicks I've lost all the drive and attraction for women (good for me) I've turned into some sort of asexual, the only thing I am worried about it's the shaming I get accused of being gay when I turn down some of this girls but I'm working on it this shaming tactics will never work on me.. I've learned it only takes one woman to fuck up your entire life upside down.. the next 10 years are going to be the hardest ever of my life.. reaching 30 with wife and kids is all I thought for as long as I existed

Sorry for grammar and other errors.. English is not my first languages.. but after 5 months of discovering MGTOW there's hope... I've completed 3 year Diploma in Logistics I'm on Learnership I save as little as I get I'm looking forward into buying my first car later this year..