Lately I've been caught up in chasing this girl I met in one of my classes. She seems alright from the few times I've talked and hung out with her but it just hit me that this probably isn't going nowhere. In the past I would get so caught up in chasing these girls that I'd spend most of my time thinking about her but now I realise that besides sex, this girl has nothing of substance to offer me. It's like she's accepted living and thinking inside of this box society has put her in so she can't talk about anything deeper than a kiddie pool, she's not passionate about anything. To Be fair though, most people are like that. I just seem to notice it more in women coz I'm attracted to them but I'm also interested in more than just sex.

Anyway, I think I've finally accepted that most of these women are not very different from each other. That's why they are so pre-occupied with their looks; they know that beyond their physical "beauty", there is a lot of ugliness on the inside. On the outside they look and act like they're all that but deep inside, there's an emptiness that they hate to acknowledge.

It's a sad realisation and it shatters the hopes I had for the future. But, the shattering of any illusion is always good, I suppose.