All my life I have been fearful of relationships, giving myself entirely to somebody never seemed appealing to me. However as the young guy I was i decided that if someone came onto me it would be okay and the only way I would instigate a relationship. Anyway a girl took interest in me when I was 16 during the summer, the first two weeks were like heaven we were texting and meeting up constantly which was a nice change of pace. BUT my father needed help working a job out of town and I volunteered. Mainly for the work experience and money but anyway I come back a couple weeks later and find out she has been messing around with my best friend.. which by itself hurts like hell. So I forgave him, dumped her and moved on, I didn't bother with anyone regarding romantic relationships for a year, however a different girl took interest in me. Which stupid me thinking a little companionship wouldn't be the worst thing, so I continue the relationship and it kept going for 2 months then one night on are two month anniversary I bought her flowers because I thought that's what people do, she took them and said thank you we hung out a youth centre with lots of friends. That night we broke up don't know why. A couple of weeks later she hooks up with the same best friend before, he didn't even ask if it's cool or whatever. So I don't know, I decide the good memories we have as friends was more important then pussy, so we still hang out. I went into any relationship with doubts and like with any repeated failed attempt you give up. I have never talked to anyone about my personal feelings about anything ever, I'm not sure if I ever will have the freedom to trust in anyone man or woman. But for the main point I started google searching, first I found red pill philosophy, then found sandman, everything past that is just gravy. MGTOW gave me the freedom to choose my own path and to be confident in it. Thank you brothers.