First of all, I got redpilled on my Junior year of high school. Before that, I was a blue pilled white knight that only had a gf in junior high school.

Enter summer leading to senior year. Began taking the path of the iron and academics seriously. I was kind of socially illiterate but I somehow made my way. I wanted to get a gf but I still had some bluepill mindset fragments ingrained in me. I kinda started talking with my ex from junior high and we became FWB but we just made out or got each other off manually.

College comes and I got a job. I was also still a virgin and I was trying to get some pussy, didn't want to fuck my ex because I knew she had been with a few guys. Anyways, I get a job in a theme park and have my first fling with a co worker. The most I got was a bj from her and that's about it. I also left lifting weights because of my tight schedule.

Fast forward till now, I've seen some MGTOW vids on YouTube and it intrigued me. Checked out this subreddit and I see that you guys kind of evade woman. Me, in the other hand, Im trying to get a gf and FUCK! Recently, I met this chick in college. We hit it off well in the start. She told me she considered herself "conservative" in the beginning but she told me that she might get fucked up this weekend and probably make out with a guy if the vibe was right. My bullshit sensors were going off the charts and she knew I like(d) her. Texted her today and only got one reply. We used to text and talk almost everyday. I don't feel that bad about being led into believing some chick liked me but I just want some action tbh... 😒 I know most of you guys would say about how I should go to a massage parlor or other methods but I do NOT want to get caught by law enforcement so I'm paranoid af about that. Another option is porn and masturbation but I've already been doing that shit for ten damn years and it's fucken boring.

That's my rant. I think I'll start working out again to let off some pent-up energy.