This is retarded, ok I admit that I'm retarded.

My gf got 25 bars and so I was withdrawing from METHADONE and felt sick as fuck and took 4 of them. That's 8mg. It didn't knock me out all the way. When I got home, I was stumbling and my parents were like "wtf, you're high on HEROIN" because they found two pins in my car. Let me say this once and for all. I was not doing heroin and have not done heroin for months and I had been on methadone and right now I'm not even on methadone, I've gotten Vivitrol, so I don't even do opiates anymore, and I'm doing the right thing. They called 911 and thought I was going to be taken to the hospital, but nope, spent the night in jail where they gave me even more methadone. That's nice, but I was tapering and that really fucked up my schedule. And basically, the cops saw me holding a replica desert eagle bb gun and freaked the fuck out. I don't remember because I was blacked out. This just what my parents told me. I didn't get charge with anything. I just spent the night in jail where the cops were fucking rude as fuck to me.

Anyway, I was suppose to be in outpatient because conditions of methadone program, and I was doing good until I started popping hot for xans because gf had all those bars. And so now outpatient made me sign a contract to not fuck up anymore or I get referred to inpatient. I fucking swear to god, I will not go. I don't give a shit what legal crap my parents have over me. I don't even think that is relevant here, anyway, I don't give a fuck, so I been having my sober friend pee for me and using fake piss. Except it oxidized and was too old and came back as adulterated, now they want blood test and swab test and whatever fuck, so basically I'm gonna be hot for xans and coke and weed, and I literally just fucking finished this outpatient, I'm not going to fucking redo inpatient.

I was arrested 4 times before and never got in jail and basically got off on most stuff. The methadone thing is government ran so I guess it matters if I'm hot for xans and coke? But i'm not even going to this fucking outpatient anymore. I signed a waiver allowing my parents access to whatever they want. It was some rehab condition shit. I was high as fuck that day. I don't think it even counts.

So wtf is happening? If I actually get referred to inpatient on fucking COKE and XANS, wtf? I was fucking doing dope before and now i'm not doing dope. That's what's more important. It's fucking coke and xanax. My parents have some sort of legal shit over me that I signed. I don't actually think it's legit because of a technicality that someone was suppose to witness us signing and no one did and I honest to god don't remember even signing shit because I was blacked out on xanax.

As far as I know, I didn't get charge with anything with the fake gun shit, so I'm good right? Like does that matter because of prior arrests? I have a really good lawyer actually. This guy got me off when I got a caught with a lot of fucking felonies on me. So i'm good there, I'm just confused as to what's going on so confused. I've taken some benzos rn so if I sound retarded that's why. Yea, I'm technically addicted to benzos.