I have been MGTOW for quite a while. As I grew up I had mgtow phases that were the best years without knowing what I was doing.

But I have been mgtow for so long that I started feeling that maybe some of my friends started questioning my sexual orientation.

I have no prejudices against gay people. But I feel insecure if people thinks I'm gay. Truth is I was always hopelessly attracted to women, and learned many things the hard way. I was always a high libido guy, so I easily became hostage in relationships because of sex.

I have been single for 6 years with sex every now and then.

But always felt this emptiness where I felt like I needed to prove something. Kind of like needing the approval of society. Or letting others know I have a female that enjoys my company. Or even showing my exs I got a new one (nothing pisses them off more).

So I have been dating this girl for some time, but I want to stop, and I plan to leave her. But the truth is, I invested a bit more on this one because I wanted to show my friends I have a girl. I know its bad...but whatever, I feel like being a mgtow long term makes some people just think you are a loser? I also wanted to show some of my ex-girlfriends that I got a new bitch, and that I can do it anytime (because this pisses them off and makes me feel more free from their ghosts I dont know why)

At the same time I felt a bit that Im failing on my morals by doing this and cant wait to be mgtow again. And I feel like Im being cold as fuck and using her just for my ego just like showing off a new car.

How do you cope with this feelings when you have them? How do you replace the feeling of showing off your new bitch to everyone? You know that there is nothing worse for your homies than thinking you are gay. And its so fucking cool to show your new bitch on facebook. Its like a big fuck you to your ex-girlfriends.

Give me your opinion or your valuable tips on how should I proceed.