Hey folks, I'm 19 studying for a degree in mechanical engineering, in my sophomore year of college. I live in a 1 bedroom and don't really talk to people outside that much anymore so I can focus on myself.

I go to the gym almost twice a day, invest in cryptocurrency and apart from studying I run a side business as a UI Designer and sell tshirts/mugs on Amazon (at least trying too, still in the beginning phase of that). I gotta say it's pretty fucking lonely. I miss being around a lot of people and talking to girls and laughing man.

I know the more I struggle now the easier my life will be in the future but I can't lie when I just wanna say fuck it and hook up with an averaging looking girl and join her friend group.

It's rough, everyone my age always wants to get drunk as fucked up but I just am not down for that, it's a waste of time, money and energy and honestly when that's always on your mind it's hard to have fun partying.

Fuck man idk maybe I'm looking for some words to chin up or something, cause God knows a man will never hear words of encouragement. Pisses me off sometimes, like I'm human too? I don't ask for much, is a pick me up every couple of months so hard to ask for from society as a guy?