Some days ago I met a womynz in the street I know back from college, who I always found very smart and also not too bad looking. I always enjoyed just chatting with her while drinking some beers and she obviously also enjoyed my presence. We haven't seen for a year or so and I was busy working and doing shit and never thought about her because I know she has a boyfriend. So when we met in the street she suggested that we should meet up again.

So I agreed, guess I was just curious as to what she has to say and I did not expect to fuck her. But on the way to where we should meet I got butterfies in my stomach or what they call it and spontaneous erections. I also started heavy breathing and having daydreams of having wife house children... I realised, shit, I might love her. Maybe half a year of mgtow made my balls go crazy and ruined my hormone balance, I don't know what the hell.

The meeting, I wouldn't call it a date, was actually really nice but at the end when I tried to get intimate she mentioned boyfriend and has to go home. Why am I surprised, I knew it before she said it.

What I know is why I went there today. I was curious and hoping that maybe I can get my dick wet.

What I will never on earth unterstand is what the fuck she was doing there.

However, I made her pay for my beers. But that may just be a desperate act to fool myself. I think I'm in love.

PS I'm also listeing to Sandman every night before falling asleep. Did not save my poor soul.