I went through my first breakup. It was with a girl I thought would be my one and only. I was 22 at the time, she was a senior in HS. Growing up watching blue-pilled love stories, and being indoctrinated by religion and family influence to encourage procreation and marriage, I thought I could live that fantasy with my ex-gf. Then I started to look into marriage/divorce rates and how common single parenting is here in America.

We were together for almost 4 years. At the time, I was 25 and experienced my first heart break. I was crushed and fell into a series of depression.

I lost tons of weight as I was no longer dining out to those restaurants we would go to often. I stopped being around old groups of people that were emotionally draining and I cut all of my social media accounts using only Reddit nowadays. My breakup was relatively private and I didn’t want to make a commotion about it to family/friends.

After a few months of confusion, depression, and finding some time away from it all, I got a German Shepherd puppy as emotional support. Got myself into cinematography with an entry level camera, got a boosted board to explore the city, and also got a few cheap laptops to mess around with video editing/web design.

We live in a society that encourages and benefits the Western women to marry and divorce with little consequence while the man is left in financial and emotional ruin. Such programs include being stuck in alimony, divorce and child support fees often times giving a free meal ticket to the woman until the kids reach 18.

What I learned through all the smoke and fog: You can’t lose if you refuse to play. Now, at the age of 27, I look at women very differently. I would be lying if I said having a relationship never crossed my mind. But at this point, I'd rather just work on self-improvement and being the best version of myself without the attachments and complications. The lizard brain is still strong in me. I still watch porn and have amassed a decent amount of content saved on my hard drive. As I write this, I'm contemplating on deleting it. Who knows! But I wanted to share my story with you folks on /r/MGTOW. I'm just another guy trying to find his way.

peace/love.