Guys, this happened. Bear with me.
So this girl (40) from HS (25 years ago) that I was madly in love with gets in touch last week. Long story short, she says she always wondered "what if" and said that for 20 years she's been in love with me and everytime she heard the Sex Pistols, or saw a guitar she's thought of me (I taught her how to play the Enter Sandman riff back then). We went our separate ways then. i was a bad boy punk rocker going to bars, playing in a band with a desire to push hard and see the world. She was a virgin that married her next bf that she met 2 months after us. And he's so much like me it's not even funny. Great guy. They are still married and she's not leaving (she's practical and admits it). She's also got cancer. So I know deep down part of this is her clearing the bucket list. And this is going to fucking hurt. But jesus christ, love DOES exist. She remembers EVERYTHING. And we have been spending time together laughing and kissing and playing music and having sex and it's only been a week. And I know I'm being selfish here. But in this case, I don't care. I earned it and i deserve it. And 25 years later it came back. And I don't owe him anything. So I'm taking it. And it's going to kill me in the end when she either doesn't make it (stage 4 but doing very well) or this just crashes when reality kicks back hard. But i don't care. I can't. I have to have this. She validates EVERYTHING and is so honest about women. She says she sees it all but she didn't have the words I have like "hypergamy" but she loves learning from me and I love learning from her. I don't know what to say guys. I mean, MGTOW saved me. The last 3 years were a nightmare and I was totally convinced (I still am) of the red pill/MGTOW everything. And I know there are no unicorns (NAWALT lol), but i can no longer say that "Women don't love men". She loves me. You have to give me a little trust there guys. And we have the same brain. She's very logical and scientific, not as much as me, but damn... she blows my mind. Looks me in the eyes holding me face going "Ben, I'm not going this way, and I'm never leaving you, i love you forever) and it's so straight, I believe it. Especially the last bit. But I guess I just wanted to come clean to the group and get your thoughts and to also maybe say that, guys, it's hard to find her, and I don't want anyone to get too much hope (hope kills). But there is always a slight chance that you'll find/feel this. LET HER RIP GUYS! Tell me I'm nuts! Tell me straight MGTOW brothers! This is us 25 years ago.
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