Been MGTOW before I knew this place existed. I can't say it was a "whole life" type of thing, but it did happen almost 20 years ago.

I was a typical guy, believed in the whole marriage and nuclear family, turn of the century and I'm engaged to who I thought was the love of my life. Completely head of heels in love with her. I'm paying for her rent, car ticket, college tuition (we met in college, I decided not to go to law school in order to get started on building a life for us). We're rolling on toward our wedding when she comes to me with a request. She wants to have sex with another woman. She's worried that she's 20 and she has never had "fun" and "adventures" and now she's got a wedding coming up. Well this was the first warning sign, and it sort of pissed me off a bit. She tried to "even" it up with the line "you can sleep with someone else too" which really pissed me off. I told her it wasn't the same thing at all. First of all for a girl to sleep with someone else (man or woman) was a rather simple thing. She just needs to say "hey lets fuck", for a guy it's far more complex. Furthermore I was completely in love with her, I didn't WANT to sleep with someone else.

She kept bringing it up from time to time, then she started to play those "jealousy" games that girls like to play with guys. She never had done that before because I had told her way back when we started to date I don't play those games, never had never will. She had the good sense to not play them till then, and the moment she started I got pissed off. Not the reaction she was fishing for, she backed off. But now my alarms are all going off and even my love addled brain is starting to figure out something is wrong.

So I came home early (till that point I was out of the house 9-9 like clock work, 6 days a week), so I came home at 4pm, around the time I knew she got back. And I found her fucking some guy in my bed.

Well end of relationship, 2 months before the wedding. Ended up fucking her best friend in revenge (she was cute, and I knew she was willing). From that point on I just decided "never again" for marriage or kids. So I'm now almost 40 with just about 20 years of MGTOW under my belt. I'll say the mid 20s were tough, but it got incredibly easy in the 30s to be MGTOW. at that point you have a house, lots of cash, and frankly any woman from 18-35 who wants to get married is willing to risk a pump and dump in hopes of landing you, a 30-40yo bachelor with financial independence and no ex. Of course the closest thing to a girlfriend I've had in those 20 years was a 22yo girl out of college who was a SERIOUS Masochist who had a 7 year running sex friend relationship. I knew she always wanted it to be more then that but 1) I'm no sexual sadists, though some of her play was fun sometimes) and 2) no way I was trusting a girl who was fucking me on the side behind the back of every boyfriend she had. Only ended when she moved to sanfran for work.

Gotta say I've never needed escorts though I have been tempted from time to time. Usually when I didn't feel like going to a club or looking for someone else to pump and dump. But on the whole I gotta say compared to what a wreck I was in my teens and early 20s being MTGOW was the best choice of my life. Of course I didn't know what i was doing was called MTGOW till yesterday. But it's pretty cool to see there are others out there who came to the same conclusion I did.

Women are never to be trusted. EVER. I can't help the biological urges that tell me to fuck them, so I do, but I'm not sick enough to trust one. I've been the guy those girls are cheating on their boyfriends and husbands with far too many times for me to EVER trust another woman again. And I'll never expose what I've built over the course of my life to a divorce court.

My only concern is kids. Part of me REALLY wants them and it's only getting more incessant in the depths of my heart the older I get. I can't even hang around my coworker's families because it depresses me deeply when I see the kids and think "I'll never have those". Never knew the desire to have your own kids was so strong in guys but man is it a bit depressing sometimes. Its not so strong a desire that I'd actually have them with some chick. But I can't help the down feelings sometimes.