ADD/Aspergers patient here. Had a terrible youth because of a vindictive feminist mom that used me to get back at my dad. Was a pretty awkard dude in my teens and twenties as a result.

Used to obsess over this girl I worked with. Apparently it's an ADD thing, I see younger guys struggle with the same thing on /r/adhd. Came to realize it's not so much the girl itself you obsess over - it's the idealized version in your head.

She viciously rejected me, though at one point she dropped some hints she wanted me to fuck her when I encountered her at a festival. Didn't catch on quickly enough, and she was gone. She's a total, hypernarcissistic bitch. Thinking back, my behavior made me cringe.

Stopped giving even the slightest of fucks several years ago, went full MGTOW. Last week, I had an appointment with my psychiatrist. I step into the waiting room, there's some people there. I don't really look at any of them, and sit down next to a young woman. I whip out my phone, I'm typing up some documentation for software I'm working on, it's a good way to pass the time.

After nearly ten minutes, the young woman next to me stands up. I look up and think 'wtf?', then go back to typing. She stands away from me, with her back turned. What a snooty bitch, but hey, I get to to sit a little bit more relaxed now.

Five minutes later still, a female doctor steps in, and calls her by her first name. As she walks by, I can see her grinning confusedly, staring at the floor. Bitch doesn't even have the courage to look up. She looks pretty bad, ill-fitting clothes, pale white, very skinny. Her facial expression reminds me of the one you'd find on the cover of an Aphex Twin album.

So back to typing I go.

And then it dawns on me. It was that girl from way back. I recognized her now.

Apparently she's doing worse than I am, didn't know she needed psychiatric help. Probably because she was too much of a bitch back when she was pretty and now nobody wants to have her around when she isn't anymore. I hope she suffers. Aaand back to not giving a shit I go.

MGTOW for life.