So here's my story: All my life, since i was a child, my older friends, my parents, their friends, even my grandparents. Every single person has had a terrible marriage which either ends in divorce or an experience for them that makes then not enjoy their life (so to speak) My father is an alcoholic (because of the divorce), my mother has had 20 boyfriends, both my grandmothers have married more than 5 times, all my relatives have married at least 3 times, my married friends are yelled at by their wives. So you could say i have been conditioned since childhood to resent marriage and relationships with women, I have never had a proper girlfriend, not because i don't have women who are interested in me, but i am extremely cautious when it comes to getting attached to someone and i am becoming more and more content with the idea of living a life of focusing on my own goals and pursuits without the "burden" of a woman. My biggest challenge is the "peer pressure" of others and deep down i do have a desire to get a girl to care for, but it is overshadowed by my desire to live my own life and i realize that "love" lasts for a few months and then fades away and you are left with a person who funnels your resources and leaves you unable to live out your life to the fullest extent. I don't even know where i'm going with this post, am i in the right place and will i find guidance here? I feel like i am alone with my view on life as i am being ridiculed and labeled as a "loser" by my peers daily.