So this is a bit complicated. I was very successful early in life. Captain of basketball team, class president. Got to college got hit with the double of bipolar with bad doctor, and cancerous tumor no insurance. Needless to say my whole life was destroyed. No money and fucked up combinations of mind altering drugs caused me me to withdraw, gain weight, no self esteem. All these factors caused me to see how no females actually like me. With nothing going for me my nice guy/beta male worldview basically just made me an object of female abuse. I also had basically all my friends/family abandon me. Which led me to be unable to make new friendships. I had almost no contact with other humans for about 5 years. I'm now in my late 20s getting my shit together, back in school studying a good degree. I've gotten better with human interaction but have trouble making male friends. This usually happened through sports but now I don't know how to make friends now I'm older. My relationship with females is basically pump and dump. I'm looking for real friends but don't know where to find them. Any advice?