Recovering young MGTOW here. 19 years old.

I used to read a lot of TRP. Bookmarked everything I can and also religiously followed sites like rooshv, rok and heartiste. Now I'm currently trying to unlearn most of the stuff I have learned there.

I'm fucking sick of it. It put too much toxic waste into my system and ruined my mindset. I can't help but genuinely hate women. Yea, it did get me lots of pussy with "game" and "alpha mindset" but it didn't take me long to realize that I am worse than a bluepill beta. I loved the female validation. I wanted to "game" every chick I find and fuck her like the whore she is.

As I started meeting more chicks, I realized that not all women are sluts who fuck dozens of men and get wasted all night. Not all women are crazy psychopaths who are hell bent on cheating with your friends and dumping you for the next hot guy they find(hypergamy). Some women are interesting too.

Please keep in mind that I am not saying that women are unicorns or something like that. All I wanted is to change my perspective of looking at women ie., to look women as they are instead of either 1) unicorns - bp mindset or 2) whores- rp mindset. Both are extremely toxic. I need to develop a neutral and emotionless perspective of looking at them(help!).

My goal is to understand women but at the same time enjoy being around the interesting ones. I don't want to look at women as a object to be "gamed" and at the same time I don't want to treat them like they're princesses. This is where I need help. I need to develop a cold, emotionless perspective.