I've been on the journey for awhile now, with the last relationship ending in December, it was 2 years long and an absolute fucking nightmare (violence, emotional terrorism, destruction of property, false allegations) all from Princess of course.

After that relationship, I went on several dates with women. It was all pointless, I banged a few of them but for the most part it was a huge waste of energy. No meaningful benefit of any kind.

The other day a girl at the coffee shop suggested I talk to her friend and 'go for that'. She was attractive. This was the first time I actually thought to myself, Nah. Usually a girl saying go talk to her attractive friend is a good sign, but I realized nothing means anything anymore with women. Her friend urging me to talk to her will probably yield in nothing meaningful either. It will also include wasting even more of my time. So I refused to even bother.

I literally just can't stomach bothering with them anymore. I'm in a good place. I was making six figures last year, but it dropped this year due to business and working on bringing it back up. I own 3 vehicles. Live in a nice house and am working on some real cool projects, good looking and barely 30. Yet, I just can't bother with women anymore. Even if I manage to 'get one' it's still not a good thing. It's like getting a present and you open it and there is a steaming pile of shit in it. Yeah, you got a gift, but there's shit inside. After getting the last one (girlfriend), all I got was physically attacked, had my shit destroyed, screaming, delusional arguments, false allegations, most likely cheating and blamed for every problem in her life just to get my dick wet. Awesome, so glad she chose me.

The truth is, I still want to be a top man, but for me now. I want to get my salary back up to six figures again this year, start working out to look even better for me, travel, save money and develop myself for ME. As my value increases I will continue to reject women for my own personal pleasure. I get more joy out of rejecting them than fucking them at this point in time.

But now I'm at a point, where I relax at home with my dog. I work on my projects and goals. I have no more energy left for women. I have days where It bothers me still but I know MGTOW is the right choice. I experience days now of divine peace. It's not every day, but once in awhile I experience a true MGTOW day and it feels incredible. It's a feeling with peace, without a female void to fill. Those days are becoming more and more frequent and it feels good.