This is not your typical MGTOW post but hear me out. I need some help and MGTOW is the only group I trust. I don't trust any of the health care people or health groups.

Every time I wake up, I wake up in a different location from the one where I went to sleep. For 5 to 10 seconds, I try to get a grip with where I am. Sometimes, someone (usually my sister or a young female) comes up to me and jabs a needle into my arm, the side or back of my body. Sometimes the needle is so small that I don't even feel it. Other times, I feel a strange sensation and fall back into sleep. And than I wake up back where I went to sleep.

This has been happening for over 6 months now. I opened up to some health care professional and they labelled me a crazy person and a danger to my family. They are giving me drugs that are making me sleep more often. Before, I didn't feel the pain from the 'dreams'. Now I wake up and still feel pain in places I get jabbed in the 'dream'.

I feel like everyone is keeping some secret from me. I feel stupid for believing there is some conspiracy.

The places I wake up in seem more futuristic. There are technologies that I don't recognize. The room is different, the furniture is different even my body feels different. Only thing that's the same are my family (at least they kind of look familiar).

One time, I tried acting like a different person after waking up and my family started calling me by a different name.

I am starting to believe that I live an alternate life that I am not aware of (maybe even multiple alternate lives). And that my family is hiding it from me by using some kind of future technology. I don't trust the clock and the calendar that are available to me. I think when I go to sleep, my family 'switch' on my alternate personality and set of memories.

Once, I made a bad on the floor in front of the door so that no one could get in while I sleep without waking me up. After a while, I heard a really faint noise and quickly got up and found my window slightly open.

I noticed that my sister never sleeps when I sleep. Also when ever I lie down on my mattress, she goes into the toilet (which is next to my room). Afterwards, I hear the neighbour pluging something into the socket. This happens every time I prepare to goto sleep.

I only get normal sleep when I sleep at irregular times but if I keep sleeping during the day whoever is messing with my just changes their schedule and I start having those experiences again.

One time my doctor said 'we talked about male and female values' and the assistant reminded him in a soft voice 'not this one' (we never did have any discussion like that). Another time the same doctor started asking about how was my travel abroad, even though I didn't travel anywhere.

In my whole neighbourhood, there is not a single adult male (there are some young adult male). Everyone is single moms with children or old grannies. No elderly males either. I feel like all the women in my family were once male that had sex change at early age. They are too physically strong to be females. My sister could lift 80kg (with two hands) when she was 15. How is that even possible?

Back to the sleeping problem.

I never did drugs and I don't drink expect for special occasions.

I had so many of these 'dreams' that I can't remember them all. Here are some of the more memorable ones.

Waking up next to a really sexy bitch and fingering her. (never seen the bitch) Waking up in a train and being shot by my mom. (the train was a luxury train that I could never afford) Waking up in a small room, alerting the servant (female), who brings my father and being threatened to be shot by my father with a olden day pistol. But instead get jabbed by the servant. (we don't have any servants) Waking up in an orphanage with lot of little kids and one of the kids had a robotic arm that concealed a syringe. Being jabbed by the syringe. (the kid's other robotic hand could turn into a shot gun) Waking up and being in zero gravity, looking out the window and seeing a moving star formation that looks like a giant. (the giant was moving) Waking up and watching a harry potter movie but harry doesn't have any magical powers and has to rely on muggle technology and snape says some bible quotes. Once I realize that its an alternate harry potter movie, I try to call my sister but I have a different phone that I can't access/use. I go downstairs and find an old woman lynched from the ceiling. (snape said something about a void in every man's heart and something about power) Waking up and I am blind but I see things if they stay still long enough. I am at some kind of Christmas toy shop and there is a Santa puppet. (I could play a guitar really good even though I never touched a guitar in real life) Waking up and I am in some cell and my nails are black. (Had this dream multiple times and different nail is black each time) Waking up and I am in a coffin, my whole body paralysed. People sobbing and crying outside. (couldn't make a sound or move) Waking up and my aunt thinks I am her child, we go over a bridge and there are clouds that look like angels. (there were lots of these angle clouds and they seemed threatening) Waking up and trying to get away before they put me back to sleep. Try to drink some water from the kitchen before I leave and my old maths teacher (female) walks up behind me and says my name with some kind of device in her hand. (as my consciousness was fading she said 'next one will wake up') Waking up and its some kind of sleep over party with lots of people (teenage women) (seems like fangirls that want autographs) and I go to the kitchen to get some water. I don't know how to turn the tap on because its all new and unfamiliar. One of the fan girls show me how and my sister walks in. I already know that I am going to lose consciousness and try to stay conscious by focusing on the cold running water from the tap. My sister presses a button. I feel some kind of liquid flowing through the inside of my liver (kidney? not sure) but I focus really hard on the cold water falling on my hand and stay conscious. My sister looks angry and presses the button again and I feel the liquid flowing trough my organs again. (I felt like it happened before) Waking up and I am having sex with 2 oiled up milfs and I have a one of those breaded dildo up my ass. I go to the toilet to figure out whats happening and someone knocks on the door. I fall unconscious on the floor. (I don't like any form of anal play) Waking up and I am running through a green grass field. I see a university advertisement and try to memorize the name of the university so that I can find out if it's in real life. Forgot the name when I woke up. Waking up and my mother is driving a bus double decker bus but keeps talking to me instead of focusing on the bus. But the bus drives it self. Waking up in some kind of Taiwanese classroom where I give a power point presentation. (I think the presentation was on story endings) Waking up blind and people are pointing weapons at me. Someone who sounds like my cousin (female) asks me for my name. I try to get up and she cuts my face with some kind of blade. I tell them my name. The cousin kisses me lip to lip. (this cousin is married and had 3 kids on other side of the planet) Waking up and I have a katana in my hand but something keeps giving me electric shocks. (I try cutting myself with the katana to see if I still have a scar when I wake up but the blade is blunt) Waking up in a hospital room and the wall is some kind of touch screen computer. A nurse (female) comes in and asks me to answer some questions. I look at question on the wall and don't understand it. I start to panic and the nurse locks me in the room. (The door was circular and white, nothing like any hospital I've ever seen) Waking up and being bitten by a dog or a small child. (not a strong jaw) Waking up in a house where the painting has worn out, going outside my room and finding a new room that wasn't there before. Only way for me to quickly access the door to the room is to jump up to it from the stairs. I do so. There is a lock on the door with about 20 to 30 names on the lock. Someone walks out from the other door. I try to find my name in the lock and she walks up behind me and says 'your father has a lot of children'. I don't want to be put back to sleep so I jump out of her reach and jump down to the floor below. I see my mom angrily shouting at a little boy for not doing his work properly and more family members behind them. I try to talk with my mom and ask her what's going on but someone jabs me with from the side before I get any answers. (From what I know, my father only has 2 children) Waking up and my house has turned into a car garage. And there is a really large snow storm outside (it rarely snows here). Waking up and I can't move because my body is encased into the mattress. I see some the people building my room around me and putting the objects in place. (The people moved really fast or my senses where slowed down) Waking up and was being electrocuted, tried to get out but the door was locked. Waking up and I am trying to fit a bicycle through an elevator. Waking up and I am in some mountain area trying to light a camp fire. Waking up and having a conversation with my great aunt about science. Waking up and my family are all talking in spanish. I don't understand a thing and speak in english. They look at me a little surprised and my sister smiles and says what kind of english is that. Waking up and there is a pencil in my hand. Someone forces the pencil out of my hand. Waking up and sexting with someone with the username BritishSakura. (Tried googling her with strange results) Waking up in a theatre play where I have to duel someone with prop sword but I start vomiting on stage. (I'm not an actor and I never played any character)

I saved the one that felt most realistic for last.

I woke up. Heard something like a balloon cracking. Walked in front of the mirror. There were at least 2 dozen paper pins stuck into my face. I took them out one by one and dropped them to the floor. At first the pain felt too real then the pain became enjoyable. Afterwards, I started looking around the room. There was a wardrobe, a messy bed. I tried to tell the time but could figure out the time. The door was orange and reminded me of our family villa. I walked out the door but it was a large apartment instead of a small villa. Ran down the stairs, people asking me where I was going. I ignored them and didn't answer. I go outside the apartment and feel like I am in a different country. An young Indian guy walks up to me and introduces himself and asks for my name. I say my name and shake his hand and my consciousness fades to black and I am back in my real room.

This is the dream that made me start to question if those were really dreams. I once jokingly brought up the subject by asking 'have you ever had pins stuck to your face' (they don't want to talk about it if I try to be serious and they put me down by calling me crazy and mental) My sister answered 'Ooo-You got an acupuncture?' It never even occurred to me that the pins stuck to the face was acupuncture.

I really want to go back to my normal sleep. I don't want to fear the people that are around me. Somehow my sister knows that I haven't slept when I stay up all night. They seem keen to get me to sleep whenever I start talking about my unusual experiences. I feel like they are manipulating my memories somehow. I fear I might be a biological droid/clone or something with less rights than a human and they keep toying with me.

Apart from the sleep problem. My life has been great ever since I found theredpill and through that mgtow. I live life the way I want, not the way people want me to. I've a gaming youtube channel that I focus on for my hobby. I found some great friends online.