Ive been following MGTOW philosophy for about 2 years and embodying it. Had a gf at the time. We broke up then I hooked up with 3 more highly attractive women over the last month or so (all early 20s 8/10). Despite having "success" with women; My realization is that I just cant stomach the bullshit anymore. I cant bring myself to buy a single fucking drink for them again. I cant stomach the effort of 'getting their number'. I cant even stomach asking them out. Its not because im afraid or some bullshit, im just disgusted at the process of doing it. I can't respect myself anymore for throwing so much away for some pussy. I can't look at them when I'm on a date and delude myself that it's anything more than me trying to be "the guy" while they sit there and receive without effort.

Im not spending another fucking single penny of my sizable salary on them. The only way i will deal with one is if she pursues me and i dont have to do anything and thats rare (and my exp usually means they are psychos). This is the year i give up on women.

Im tired of investing someone who inests nothong in me. Im tired of being expected to pay. Tired of being the entertainer. Tired of being responsible for making a never happy creature happy. Im tired of the endless games of approval goal post shifting. I'm tired of investing in someone that unlike a friend, won't even show me basic respect or accountability. Its far too much investment just for someone will eventually hate you. Because lets face it, on a long enough time scale they ALL hate you eventually, whether it is known or subconcious by them.