I find myself trying to see the female perspective. Not because I want a woman, more so to try to understand. The more time I spend in /r/feminism the more I realize the shaming tactics that are used, that they measure us men by demeaning us in a lack of ability to attract women, and attack us at the core of post-manhood, which was to raise a family, etc. etc. It's just a little sad for me to continuously have my views slowly solidifying when it comes to women. I had wanted a big family, to raise children, and to have a good marriage. Now, all I see is the venom and hatred in women's hearts and it saddens me, especially when I look into my motivation in life was to attract a woman to have a family. Just lost now, kind of trying to figure out what I want to do with my life. The red pill is difficult to swallow. FYI: 22 years old, living in a semirural area.