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IAmA 23 y/o female with Antisocial Personality Disorder and a PCL-R Score of 33/40. This mean I'm a clinically diagnosed psychopath. AMA! (self.casualiama)

HarmlessKitten が 投稿

I've been asked to do an AMA on my psychopathy for a long time now, so I figured I'd go ahead and do it for entertainment's sake. Posting here as r/IAmA doesn't like 'psychiatric conditions'.

I was diagnosed at 19 by a therapist specialising in personality disorders as having ASPD. I was then sent to two separate specialists for my PCL-R score, which averaged out at 33/40. A score of 25+ (30+ in the US) is required to be diagnosed as a psychopath.

I cannot feel emotional empathy (the feeling of 'catching' emotions) or guilt. AMA.

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[–]LoraxlRose 21 ポイント22 ポイント  (11子コメント)

Can you explain what life is like as a "psychopath"? What does it mean to be diagnosed with this?

Do you really not feel any empathy or guilt at all? Do you wish that you did or are you happy the way you are?

[–]HarmlessKitten[S] 30 ポイント31 ポイント  (10子コメント)

I don't experience emotional empathy or guilt. I'm also able to focus on tasks and block out distractions with ease. This has allowed me to become highly successful and I almost always get my way.

The diagnosis made me realise, and be able to put into words, how I have always felt different to those around me.

The closest I feel to emotional empathy is cognitive empathy, this is me understanding how someone feels logically. So I realise someone is in pain when injured or upset when they have lost their job, for example. I just don't care.

Guilt, the closest I have to this is being frustrated that I did something inefficiently.

I'd turn down a 'cure' if one was offered to me. I'm comfortable as I am.

[–]jackismyname1 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (3子コメント)

I'm not a psychopath, and I do feel a lot, but will it help me if I have the ability to turn off my emotions on will, unlike many people, I can just stop feeling, I can become one of the coldest evilest POS you may encounter - will this help me in the industry and in manipulating people?

[–]Vector-Zero 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (3子コメント)

So I realise someone is in pain when injured or upset when they have lost their job, for example. I just don't care.

TIL that I may be a psychopath.

[–]MozzarellaSquirrel 24 ポイント25 ポイント  (1子コメント)

or an edgy teen

[–]Vector-Zero 7 ポイント8 ポイント  (0子コメント)

23, and only slightly edgy. It's more that whenever someone is sad/angry, I'm kinda just like, "well, dang." But I may just be shitty at handling situations like that too, which is honestly the more likely case.

[–]diplomacynpa 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

Everyone feels this way sometimes.

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    [–]P3ccavi 13 ポイント14 ポイント  (7子コメント)

    This might be a stupid question but is it hard for you to date? Like, you said you don't catch emotions, so is it hard to find someone that can be with you knowing you won't catch emotions?

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 27 ポイント28 ポイント  (6子コメント)

    I don't tell the majority of people that I date, thus dating is incredibly easy. People are very trusting when it comes to romance, so it's easy mode when it comes to manipulating them.

    That said I have a partner of five years who knows of my condition, she has a milder form of ASPD. We find each other mutually beneficial and enjoy one another's company, thus continue our relationship.

    I imagine if I told most people of my condition though, that they couldn't trust me and wouldn't want to be with me. The majority of people who have found out about my diagnosis has cut off contact with me quickly. As such I tend not to tell almost anyone.

    [–]DeputyDomeshot 6 ポイント7 ポイント  (2子コメント)

    Are you sexually exclusive in your relationship? Is there a consensus between you on this?

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 8 ポイント9 ポイント  (1子コメント)

    We've dipped in and out of having an open relationship. Mostly she gets jealous or I get possessive. We're thinking of going for an open relationship again soon though.

    The last time I had sex with someone outside of our relationship was in December. My girlfriend knows about it and was a bit pissed off that I didn't ask her first.

    [–]DeputyDomeshot 4 ポイント5 ポイント  (0子コメント)

    Funny I always figured this would be a point of constant contention between two individuals in a relationship that both have ASPD. A constant battle over the will of possession and control while still attempting to feed their own non-obstructed desires.

    [–]D3lta105 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (2子コメント)

    What do you think about "love"? You state that you find your relationship with your partner to be "mutually beneficial", but are you only interested in getting something out of it? Do you have any desire to commit a selfless act that would only benefit your partner?

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (1子コメント)

    1. I think that love is the intense appreciation of something, in that sense me and my partner both love one another and respect one another for our strengths and accomplishments.

    2. No.

    [–]D3lta105 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

    Thanks for answering!

    [–]shitiforgotmypasswor 11 ポイント12 ポイント  (33子コメント)

    What was the most "psychopath" thing you ever did?

    [–]squashedbananas 10 ポイント11 ポイント  (17子コメント)

    I feel like the "trying to slice my sister's throat open with a knife" thing should at least be a close second.

    [–]kalebwade3 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (16子コメント)

    Yeah /u/HarmlessKitten explain that comment...

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 7 ポイント8 ポイント  (15子コメント)

    My sister was a narcissistic, overly angry, shortsighted and insecure waste of space. She would often cause me no end of irritation while we were growing up, one day I decided I'd had enough so I pulled out a kitchen knife and held it to her throat. I don't know if I was actually going to kill her or not.

    My dad came home and pulled me off of her, she did quieten down for a while though, at least. I was given a diagnosis of conduct disorder at the time.

    [–]sawdawg 10 ポイント11 ポイント  (8子コメント)

    Interesting how you make excuses for your behavior. You're definitely in the wrong here.

    [–]kalebwade3 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

    Yeah... something's not connecting here...

    [–]squashedbananas 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (0子コメント)

    It's almost as though they have a very serious personality disorder!

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (5子コメント)

    Right and wrong are subjective.

    My goal was to shut her up and I succeeded, therefore what I did was the correct course of action.

    [–]sawdawg 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (4子コメント)

    Yeah, right and wrong are subjective if you're immature and selfish. There actually is a larger world where actions have consequences, where the things we do cause suffering or don't cause suffering. Other people and creatures have feelings besides you. You should be ashamed of yourself until you realize that.

    [–]rokhana 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (2子コメント)

    How is your relationship with your sister now?

    [–]kalebwade3 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

    Irritated? Explain to me that cause you've stated that you can't really feel emotions or guilt.

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

    No. I cannot feel emotional empathy or guilt. Emotional empathy is caring what others feel and potentially 'catching' their emotions.

    It's a Hollywood myth that psychopaths cannot feel any emotions at all.

    [–]squashedbananas 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

    They didn't say that they don't feel emotions - in fact, they specifically said not feeling emotions is a Hollywood myth.

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 11 ポイント12 ポイント  (14子コメント)

    I once cut the wings off of a bird with hedge clippers and watched it struggle for a while. Then I broke its neck when I got bored.

    [–]sawdawg 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (2子コメント)

    You're messed up.

    [–]darkcohort 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (7子コメント)

    Why kill it?

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (6子コメント)

    It was making a lot of noise and my parents were going to be home within minutes.

    That and I'd never killed an animal before then, I wanted to see what it felt like.

    [–]panda-panda 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (3子コメント)

    Would you ever kill a human just to see what it feels like? How do you set your boundaries?

    [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 4 ポイント5 ポイント  (2子コメント)

    1. Of course. But I won't do so until it can be consider both safe (death being reversible) and voluntary (including under law). I don't want to go to prison, so I'd need it to be both safe and voluntary before I did it.

    2. Mostly by avoiding incarceration, it's boring, I hate boredom.

    [–]panda-panda 4 ポイント5 ポイント  (1子コメント)

    Interesting. I think if it were both reversible and voluntary, plenty of people would give it a go.

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        [–]lpisme 9 ポイント10 ポイント  (2子コメント)

        Do you ever find yourself wishing you could feel emotional empathy? Have you ever sought treatment? Your candidness is extremely appreciated but, to be honest, disturbing.

        [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

        1. No.

        2. As for treatment, I have sought management in the form of therapy. It helps me to control my anger and impulsiveness.

        3. No worries, I am as I am.

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          [–]kalvinbastello 10 ポイント11 ポイント  (20子コメント)

          What do you think about pop culture representative of sociopaths/psychopaths?

          Do people ever treat you different because of this?

          I can't think of any obvious examples right now. Dexter's about the only thing "related" I can think of (do you like Dexter/show about a guy who has trouble relating?).

          [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 12 ポイント13 ポイント  (3子コメント)

          I think most of the time pop culture makes psychopaths far too reptilian in nature. Hollywood is particularly bad for making psychopaths that have no emotions whatsoever. We feel pretty much everything an empath does, just not emotional empathy or guilt.

          Those who I have told mostly want to cut off contact. My girlfriend of five years knows though and is cool with it. She has a milder form of ASPD.

          From what little I saw of Dexter, I like the look of it. I do enjoy seeing psychopaths in media when they're done right.

          [–]Stuntman222 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (2子コメント)

          Wait so you feel standard emotions like happiness, anger, sadness ect, just not for others?

          [–]DeputyDomeshot 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (13子コメント)

          I think Tony Soprano is probably one of the most interesting takes on psychopath

          [–]rdudejr 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (12子コメント)

          Every comment I read here makes me think of Tony Soprano. Spot on.

          [–]DeputyDomeshot 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (1子コメント)

          Well its interesting that OP mentioned therapy because one of the major themes of the Sopranos is basically the idea that therapy would be societally ineffectual on true psychopaths. Tony seeks therapy to help himself with panic attacks but actually uses Dr. Melfi's theory of humanity to help him manipulate people and excel at his... work.

          All the while, never really challenging his own impulses and hypocritical ideals.

          [–]rdudejr 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

          Yep to me it's the best story line in the show.

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            [–]hadapurpura 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            I don't think tv Dexter is an actual psychopath, or at least he doesn't have the same condition as OP. He went depressed and became a lumberjack because his sister died. He was a traumatized kid who was further abused by his adoptive father.

            [–]SashaWoodson 7 ポイント8 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Ever tried ecstasy/molly? It causes a feeling of extreme emotional empathy and connection for those capable would be interesting to know your reaction. Side note. I'm a little jealous as my medications tone down my empathy.

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 6 ポイント7 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            I have tried ecstasy in the past, it didn't make me feel emotional empathy in the slightest, just really wired and alert.

            I used to take it to stay up all night while clubbing.

            [–]shitiforgotmypasswor 14 ポイント15 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            What is the worse part of your condition?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 36 ポイント37 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            I suppose if I had to pick one it's that sometimes with movies/games/books I miss the authors intent to elicit an emotional reaction.

            [–]lilvon 11 ポイント12 ポイント  (11子コメント)

            So as your not able to feel empathy do you get a kick out of watching others suffer? If so have you ever orchestrated any events in which you made or were able to watch someone suffer purely for entertainments sake? Got any good stories?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 21 ポイント22 ポイント  (10子コメント)

            1. It really depends on my mood, I view taking people apart in the same way that I view robots or pocket watches being taken apart. It's just a machine with its parts being removed. That said, the mental suffering an individual goes through knowing they are being tortured/killed is highly entertaining to me. So if I'm in the mood, yes.

            2. I've manipulated several people into situations of high emotional pain for the purpose of entertainment. As for physical? I used to get into a lot of fights which were extremely fun. I have also tortured a few masochists in the BDSM scene, but sadly I can't go anywhere near where I'd like to go. I'm hoping some day we'll have nano tech so I can dismember/disembowl someone without going to prison for it.

            3. I watched my father slowly lose his mind and die as a result of kidney failure. He was an abusive prick, (physical/verbal/sexual) so I took great pleasure in watching it. As for something I've done? I had this annoying ginger kid constantly irritate me during my first year of high school. When he laid a hand on me for the first time I smashed his head into a car bumper and he never bothered me again. That was funny.

            [–]CDSince1904 8 ポイント9 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Do you think your dad's abusiveness caused you to be this way or do you believe you were born like this?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 6 ポイント7 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            I personally think I was born like this given that I have never at any point felt emotional empathy or guilt, I think I probably would have if my condition was just a by-product of abuse. Given my father also displayed psychopathic tendencies, I think that it is likely genetic.

            That said it could just be a result of abuse, although unlikely. I don't really care the cause though, I am as I am.

            [–]youallsuck17 12 ポイント13 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            After this comment i love your username even more

            [–]smash-things 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (3子コメント)

            God getting disemboweled sounds like the least pleasant experience

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

            Depends on who is getting disembowelled. ;)

            [–]CUTMYLIFEINTOPIZZAS -1 ポイント0 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Have you ever seen the music video for the Nine Inch Nails song "Happiness in Slavery"? It might be right up your alley.

            [–]lilvon 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Thank you for your reply! Very interesting stuff. Feel free to share more stories!

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 4 ポイント5 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            I have so many it would be difficult to run through them all. I'll post them in response to relevant questions though so I'm not repeating myself.

            [–]JessiesGirl80 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            Number 3 is a very large part of why you have Antisocial Personality Disorder, and I don't find it at all odd that you would feel satisfaction from the prick being hurt.

            [–]Tigeris 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (5子コメント)

            Two questions:

            In the original topic you talked about developing a "pro-social philosophy to live by". Can you go into more depth about this philosophy and how you developed it?

            Would you say that being your friend has more benefits than drawbacks, or the other way around?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 7 ポイント8 ポイント  (4子コメント)

            1. My philosophy is that society is a machine and we're all cogs inside of it. It is in my best interests that this machine keeps working so I can keep enjoying a better quality of life as a result of technological progression. As such, I should avoid damaging cogs in ways that would affect the machine as a whole. I developed this philosophy as a way of logically controlling impulsive behaviour, I don't want to kill someone who is possibly going to be key to some revolutionary future development, even if at the time they seem like they're irrelevant. Also, prison is boring and I hate boredom more than anything else.

            2. Most of my manipulation of friends leaves them feeling better about themselves, but every friendship I have is only there because it is of value to me. It really depends on if you care that my nice words are insincere and that I'm likely using you for my own benefit.

            [–]Tigeris 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (3子コメント)

            Thanks so much for all your responses! This is intensely interesting.

            Couple of follow-ups:

            I don't want to kill someone who is possibly going to be key to some revolutionary future development, even if at the time they seem like they're irrelevant.

            I think that's an interesting philosophy. If I understand correctly, you refuse to kill anybody on principle as they may contribute to the development of civilization (technologically), even if it's in a way you can't see as plausible. Is that correct?

            You also mention kill, specifically. Does that extend to harm? Where is the line drawn?

            every friendship I have is only there because it is of value to me

            I'd say the same, honestly. Our definitions of what contributes value, however, will probably differ. What value do you get from your relationships?

            Most of my manipulation of friends leaves them feeling better about themselves. It really depends on if you care that my nice words are insincere and that I'm likely using you for my own benefit.

            I'm afraid I don't quite follow. Can you maybe provide an example situation?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (2子コメント)

            1. Essentially yes, I'd kill if I could get away with it and knew it wouldn't bite me in the ass somehow. As for harm? I have no problem harming people so long as I don't get sent to prison for it.

            2. Access to social circles, transport, occasional monetary compensation for my time, interesting discussions, entertainment.

            3. A prime example would be one of my friends who has issues with self-confidence, I tell her that she looks beautiful and is an awesome individual who is depriving the world by not being out there interacting with it. She feels better about herself. In reality, I think she's of average attractiveness at best and only tell her that she's pretty because it means she will drive me to a party.

            [–]questioning_u 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Why would any rational psychopath admit to these kind of urges on a forum that is constantly being monitored by all sorts of governmental entities? For a person so directed by logic, you seem remarkably short-sighted. I get that, as a psychopath, you lean toward emotional explosiveness and impulsivity, so maybe you'll delete this in a few hours, I don't know.

            All I'm saying is that you should keep your directionless desire for violence to yourself.

            [–]Janeruns 4 ポイント5 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            What made you seek a diagnosis for your disorder? What it self motivated or directed by family or an external force?

            What was your experience with abuse from your father, how do you imagine it was different from someone who does not have your condition?

            You have mentioned a greater ability to focus and be productive, are there any other things/experiences/emotions that you feel you can engage in more intensely due to your lack of empathy? Im imagining how people who are blind can have more heightened awareness in their hearing, do you think lack of empathy has created a similar heightened awareness in other areas for you?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            I got the diagnosis for ASPD after seeking out someone to help me control impulsiveness and anger. I got the help I needed in the form of cognitive behavioural therapy and the diagnosis of ASPD came as a result. My therapist suggested I get the PCL-R carried out after I told her I wanted to cut my friend up with a circular saw.

            I did develop a mild form of PTSD as a result (which I'm now mostly over thankfully), I imagine it would have been much more severe if I was an empath because of emotional attachments to parental figures.

            I think my lack of emotional empathy has made me put logic before feelings, something I see a lot of people fail to do. As such critical thinking is much easier for me. Besides that the obvious ability to witness horrific events and not be bothered in the slightest is a pretty good benefit.

            [–]calmdownpaco 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Have you ever gotten embarrassed? Can other people's attitudes or actions affect your mood? How do you view humor?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            I rarely feel embarrassed, but at the same time I rarely allow myself to get into situations where I feel embarrassment. When I have felt it though, it was more of a feeling of anger at being made fun of.

            Peoples attitudes/actions only affect my mood if there is a logical reason for them to do so. For example, if someone is crying and I have to pretend to care, I can often become annoyed at being inconvenienced. I find people's idiocy to be either funny or irritating.

            I like dry humour where the jokes deconstruct something and give commentary on it. Given I live in the UK, I'm fortunate. We have a lot of dry humour here.

            [–]CDSince1904 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            There are many highly intelligent people with autism who can't feel emotional empathy. What's the difference with your diagnosis?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            From my understanding, autism can cause people to develop 'special interests' which restrict their activities. Not only this but they tend to have 'ticks' such as waving their hands around when stressed and needing strict routines.

            ASPD only really shares the link of not feeling emotional empathy and a disregard for social norms. People with ASPD tend to be more impulsive, too.

            [–]Nerotas 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (12子コメント)

            I know that this might be a too personal question so feel free to ignore it, but i'm very curious how you feel about having children and care for them? Also i'm interested in what would you do for your partner. In particular, would you do something for her from which you doesn't benefit ?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (11子コメント)

            I'd only have kids if I didn't have to raise them myself, also only if I didn't have to go through pregnancy. Pregnancy seems highly parasitic to me.

            Anything I do for my partner benefits me either directly (e.g. eating a nice meal with her gives me a nice meal too) or indirectly (e.g. I give her a massage and she feels less snappy, thus making my day easier). If you mean giving my life for her? Depends if I get resurrected by some far off future technology or not.

            [–]ansong 12 ポイント13 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Please don't breed.

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 4 ポイント5 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            No intentions to currently.

            [–]nevynervine 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (3子コメント)

            Would you do something to hurt your partner (either physically/socially/professionally) if it benefitted you more than she does?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

            Depends on if I get caught or not. If not, then sure.

            [–]SweetLuv72 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            How would your partner feel if she heard you say that? And as I type that, I realize that no part of you cares how she feels.

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            She wouldn't be surprised. I mean, maybe she'd feel a bit upset? But that's easy to fix.

            [–]hadapurpura 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

            So would you be an egg donor?

            [–]KingGorilla 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Does passing on your genes and thus a legacy appeal to you?

            [–]L3moncola 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            What fictional characters do you think you are most similar to?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            Lisa from Girl, Interrupted.

            [–]Ale85962 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (1子コメント)

            Have you ever tried shrooms or any other psychedelic drug?

            [–]Detox1337 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (9子コメント)

            Have you considered using transcranial simulation to the empathy centre? www.newscientist.com/article/mg21128274-300-empathy-enhanced-by-magnetic-stimulation-of-the-brain/amp/

            Would you want to be more normal?

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (8子コメント)

            I'm comfortable with my condition, I'd never want to 'cure' it, even temporarily. Emotional empathy sounds horrific.

            [–]Tigeris 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (7子コメント)

            Emotional empathy sounds horrific.

            Can you expand on this? I'd say that most of those who do experience emotional empathy would argue the opposite. You may argue that they're deluding themselves, but how would you make that argument?

            [–]KingGorilla 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            Personal anecdote but im highly empathetic and i find it agonizing at times. I do feel like it gives me purpose though so i dont know if id give it up.

            [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (2子コメント)

            The idea that my emotional state can be dictated by how those around me are feeling? That's basically just mind control. Screw that.

            [–]Tigeris 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (0子コメント)

            I realize the point of life is subjective, so I've decided that the point of my life is to have fun.

            Makes sense from this perspective. If you're interested in my perspective (though this is probably nothing new to you), I agree that the point of life is (most likely) subjective and have put happiness as the top goal. Ergo, a life without empathy sounds horrific to me.

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              [–]DeputyDomeshot 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              I'm going to go ahead and assume that it generally sucks to have internal repercussions for external actions?

              [–]Tigeris 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Depends on the action.

              I structure many of my decisions on how it makes those close to me feel. Contributing to the happiness of others contributes to my own happiness and I derive a lot of pleasure from that.

              I'd love to experience things from a perspective without emotional empathy. To me it sounds devoid of a lot of the pleasure I take from life, however, so it really interests me that OP seem to feel similarly about life with emotional empathy.

              [–]freearevirserdna 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              I saw your link in the EDWIN IamA, thank you for doing this!

              [–]CDSince1904 4 ポイント5 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              Is there any treatment for your condition? Can any pills or therapy increase your ability to feel empathy or guilt?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              No. I wouldn't want a 'cure' anyway.

              [–]fuckniggabitch 4 ポイント5 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Lots of psychedelic drugs, all day, every day

              [–]HeloisaSB 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (7子コメント)

              What do you work with and how do you find motivation to do things? I really don't understand quite well how far the lack of empathy or guilt might get in the way of things, and I'm sorry if my question isn't clear enough.
              Also, are you open about this with people close to you? How do they usually react when finding out?
              Thank you!

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 6 ポイント7 ポイント  (6子コメント)

              I'm a published author. I'd link to my work but it would defeat the point of anonymity. Motivation is easy, it's purely cognitive for me. I realise the point of life is subjective, so I've decided that the point of my life is to have fun. I enjoy my work, therefore I have no problems getting motivated. I can understand peoples emotions cognitively, I just don't care, so it doesn't get in the way of me writing believable characters, if anything it makes it easier.

              Only my partner of five years knows. People normally react by cutting off contact with me, although a few people I have told I've then lied to and convinced that it was just a symptom of something else. Because of the fearful reaction it usually causes, I tend to very rarely tell anyone about my diagnosis.

              [–]silverpony24 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (4子コメント)

              Is it hard to develop characters with emotional depth as you personally may not experience the emotions you are trying to communicate? For example, how do you write about a grieving character if you have never experience grief or emotional loss?

              Also, do you want kids?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 7 ポイント8 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              I experience all the same emotions empaths do, just not emotional empathy or guilt. It's a Hollywood myth that psychopaths don't feel any emotions.

              My form of grief is somewhat more clinical than most, but I do understand cognitively how grief makes empaths feel from their explanations of it. As such I can write a character who displays grief unhindered by personal experiences of it. I'd say that makes my character equal or superior to those written by an empath.

              I only want kids if I don't have to raise them. I'd rather not go through pregnancy either, maybe a test tube baby?

              [–]silverpony24 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              Hahaha! Fair enough.

              I respect that you want to remain anonymous but I would love to read your books. Maybe we can comprise: any good book recommendations? ;)

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              H.G. Wells is always good. I'm also a fan of graphic novels and manga, especially stuff by Bryan Lee O'Malley and Junji Ito.

              I'd love to recommend my work, but sadly if I did then it would be very easy for someone to figure out who I am given information I have revealed on this account.

              [–]silverpony24 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Totally understand that. Thanks for the book recommendations, been looking for some new reading material. I will check those out

              [–]HeloisaSB 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Thank you very much for your answer!
              I understand your reasoning, but right now I'm very curious to read your books!
              This is an amazing AmA!

              [–]odroberi 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              When did you first realize you were a bit different? Was it a sudden awakening or did it just gradually come to you?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 6 ポイント7 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              I've always known, pretty much since my earliest memory. I wasn't able to put it into words, or realise exactly how different I am, until I was diagnosed though.

              [–]odroberi 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Thank you for answering. I also had another question if you are interested.

              If you've ever seen the show Dexter, how do you feel about the accuracy of the portrayal of the character?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 7 ポイント8 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Dexter was fairly accurate from what I remember, I only saw a few episodes though.

              One of the best portrayals by far is Lisa in Girl, Interrupted. That and Shogo Makishima in Psychopass.

              [–]dragon_gard 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              What's your star sign?

              [–]DeputyDomeshot 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (4子コメント)

              In your estimation are psychopaths generally better at recognizing other psychopaths?

              Also, do you have any "advice" on dealing with psychopaths that "normies" would come across in business or personal dealings?

              I will gild you if you give me a good detailed response to the second question.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              1. Yes.

              2. You usually won't be able to tell that they're psychopaths unless they fuck up somehow. Generally if they seem too good to be true or too nice to be true... They're probably a psychopath. Usually they'll climb the business ladder quicker than others. Look for their actions, not their words. If they say they're always there for you, then ditch you repeatedly (even with very good excuses) then chances are they're a psychopath. Once they've revealed themselves to be psychopaths, cut off all contact gradually, if you do it too sudden or tell them you know they're psychopaths, they'll likely try to ruin your life somehow or sweet talk their way back into you trusting them.

              [–]DeputyDomeshot 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              Perhaps cutting off contact isn't an option, any way to deal with them directly? Or should I ask how would you deal with them directly if they were an obstacle you couldn't escape?

              [–]normalornotwhoa 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Why do you think ASPD's like doing AMA's so much? It's one of the most common topics on this sub.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              I'm not sure. For myself it's because it's entertaining and it allows me to examine myself, giving rise to better self-awareness.

              [–]SweetLuv72 -1 ポイント0 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Although I would fear for my life, I bet you'd be incredible in bed

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              I've been told I've given people the best sex of their lives multiple times. Really depends if you're into violent sex or not though. Vanilla is just too boring for me.

              [–]HeloisaSB 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Are you an atheist?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 5 ポイント6 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Atheist/Agnostic. I suppose it's mostly that I don't really care, but I think it is unlikely that our universe was made by a sentient entity.

              [–]strawberrygirl1000 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              What is Antisocial Personality Disorder? And do you have to take medication for it?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              It's a personality 'disorder' characterised by a disregard for social norms (including laws), a lack of empathy/remorse and high amounts of impassivity.

              There is no medication for it, although I have been forced to take Valium to calm me down on a few occasions.

              [–]calmdownpaco 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              How do you understand ethical behavior since it is so closely tied to empathy? How do you balance your own ethical code without it?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 7 ポイント8 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              I view ethics/morals as entirely subjective. My view is that society is a machine and we're all cogs inside of it. It is in my best interest if the machine works well so technology can keep progressing and my standard of living can keep improving. As such I try to avoid damaging cogs in the machine in ways that may cause the machine itself to fail.

              Also I want to avoid prison, prison is boring. I hate boring.

              [–]thegreatmarker 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              I kinda have a follow up question to this since you brought up society, do you believe that society would function better if everyone was a psychopath?

              My question arises because I'm not sure if everyone thinking logically all the time would outweigh the effect of everyone being only self interested.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              No, I wouldn't want a society of all or even mostly psychopaths. I think society works best as it is: 96% Empaths and 4% Psychopaths. It's a symbiotic relationship.

              Besides, without empaths, I have no-one to manipulate with ease.

              [–]ApacheNectar 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (8子コメント)

              Have you connected with other people who express interest in torture/killing? Also, any experience in a ritual involving a sacrifice?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (7子コメント)

              I have met a few other psychopaths in my lifetime who have revealed themselves as such. We used to plan kidnapping/torturing, but never carried anything out because we don't want to risk prison. Other than that I have met people into BDSM who obviously express an interest in torture, although rarely killing.

              I've never been to a ritual involving a sacrifice.

              [–]chokingontheback 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              We used to plan kidnapping/torturing, but never carried anything out because we don't want to risk prison.

              That is fucking insane. I appreciate the honesty.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              I am as I am.

              [–]SweetLuv72 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              If you could kill someone tonight and be guaranteed 100% not to be caught - would you jump at the chance?

              I understand not having empathy, but having urges to kill people is something that seems completely separate from that.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Yes.

              You're correct in that having urges to kill is separate to a lack of empathy, a lack of empathy merely facilitates the desire to kill people. I view people like I view robots or pocketwatches, they're fascinating to take apart. But unlike robots of pocketwatches, their parts are usually covered in a gorgeous red and they're almost guaranteed to feel and know that you're taking them apart, examining them.

              [–]eigendude 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              Is it universal that psychopaths enjoy torture / kidnapping / murder? What do you get out of it, personally?

              Is manipulation a means to an end, or does it bring you happiness directly and why?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              1. No.

              2. I like to see how machines work, human beings are very elegant machines. I get to take them apart physically and mentally through torture.

              3. Means to an end, although sometimes I feel proud of myself when I've pulled off a particularly complicated run of manipulation.

              [–]tellmetheworld 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              you said you're in a relationship with someone for over 5 years. Do you ever Miss them when you're away? Or feel attachment to them in any way?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              I miss their company if they are gone for long periods of time. It's more so out of potential boredom than anything else though.

              I'm 'attached' to them in the sense that we're both of mutual value to one another.

              [–]panda-panda 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              How would you feel if your partner decided to leave because she no longer feels that the relationship is mutually beneficial?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              I feel that she would be mistaken, but it is her choice. I'd be a bit annoyed due to the potential process of having to move home/split finances.

              [–]goteeeem 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              1. Is it true that psychopaths are good at manipulating people? Do you manipulate people for your own gain?

              2. How easy is it for you to tell a very convincing lie? How often do you find yourself lying to other people?

              3. How do you view yourself compared to other people? I've read that psychopaths generally look at themselves superior to other people. Is that a fact or does that kind of stuff not matter to you?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              1. Yes and Yes.
              2. Incredibly easy and incredibly often.
              3. I think my psychopathy makes me superior to empaths as it is concerned. I don't really care if I'm the best at everything in the room, so long as I keep improving and bettering my skills and abilities, I'm happy. 'Best' is usually just subjective anyway.

              [–]OEpicness 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              I've always been very interested in the human mind and disorders. Especially psychopaths and multiple personality disorder. I admire that you wouldn't want a cure even if you had the choice for one. If you're able to have a "normal " life that you are proud of, then more power to you. There are numerous individuals whom are deemed mentally stable or "average " that still can't enjoy life the way you seem to be able to. But I do have a few questions:

              What is your circle of friends like? Obviously it sounds like they don't know about your condition, but it still must be somewhat unique to most. Was it harder to obtain them? Do you have anyone you could claim as a close friend? And if so, considering your empathy is lacking, how do you think you'd handle a close friend or other person experiencing a tragedy?

              Sorry if it's a lot! I'm just truly curious :)

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              1. It's very mixed, I have models, audio technicians, body builders and people who live off-grid.

              2. I imagine it was easier for me to obtain my friends that it would be for an empath. The area I struggle with is caring to maintain those friendships.

              3. Yes.

              4. I wouldn't really care. I guess I could use it to my advantage by comforting them.

              [–]HoldenMcGroin_53 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              Thanks for taking the time to do this. It is incredibly interesting and informative.

              What are some of your life goals, short-term or long-term?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              I suppose my only goal in life is to have fun. As such I pick up short-term and long-term activities that facilitate this.

              [–]KingGorilla 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              What kind of activities do you enjoy? You ever try horror games or surgery simulators?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              I enjoy reading, writing, drawing and media. I enjoy horror games that have something to say. As for surgery simulation? I've played surgeon simulator and regularly end up just killing the patient or purposefully leaving tools inside of them.

              [–]Andybarteaux 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              How have you learned to build trust with people? Both receiving and giving.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              I don't really understand. I tend not to explicitly 'trust' anyone unless they have proven themselves capable. I would imagine it is the same for those interacting with me.

              [–]Cleave42686 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              You've said that when people found out about your condition, they would normally cut off contact soon after. Did this ever bother you or did you just chalk it up as a relationship that wasn't worth your time?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              It taught me the common reaction to people finding out, so it was valuable in that sense. Some of them going lost me certain perks, like access to a car during that point in my life. All in all thought I didn't really care, I just didn't want them telling others and to my knowledge they haven't.

              [–]rdudejr 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              What was the PCL-R test like? I think I have taken this same test administered by a forensic psychologist but I am not sure.

              Do you work with any groups of psychopaths or people with personality disorders to continue your CBT?

              Did you have any other issues (I.e addiction) that went along with your psychopathy? If so was it treated and how do you manage these issues?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              1. I can't really remember the specifics of the test, it was mostly me answering a lot of questions. If it was a forensic psychologist then the chances are good that they were administering the PCL-R.

              2. No.

              3. I've never been addicted but I used to get into a lot of fights with people. I also did a lot of drugs and stole regularly. I've managed these issues by realising I was lucky to avoid arrest and that I don't want to risk going to prison, prison is horribly boring.

              [–]rdudejr 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Interesting. Yes that test was a Tom of questions. Like 200. The psychologist told me after I didn't have any issues gleaned by the test, but of course I still always wonder if the test was wrong.

              Thanks for your answers!

              [–]Valdincan 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (6子コメント)

              Do you feel superior to "empaths"?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (5子コメント)

              Yes.

              [–]Valdincan 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (4子コメント)

              But do you ever feel that you are "less than" empaths? I mean, I'm very asocial and easily annoyed by sociality, but the compassionate emotions are still at the "centre" of my being, as they are with most healthy humans (and mammals in general); all other wants and desires, thoughts and feelings are constantly tugged by the centre of the "social" emotions. It is the core of the human mind, us being social creatures.

              Yet you lack that. You lack a huge part of the human experience; you can not even begin to understand it, or attempt to feel it. All your thoughts and feelings are planets without a sun; your being a system lacking the brightest and most influencing part. You never feel depressed that you, by your nature, lack such important knowledge?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              I understand empathy perfectly fine, as demonstrated by my ease of manipulating people through supposed empathy.

              It doesn't bother me in the slightest that I lack emotional empathy though, while you're bound to a sun, I'm free to roam the universe.

              [–]Valdincan 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              The universe is an empty place outside a system, without anything of interest other than the background radiation of existence. Most things find their place in orbit of something, but you are with out the very concept of "orbit".

              You can use empathy, you have an understanding of what it looks like, and sounds like, in normal people, and can mimic that like a lyre bird, but like the lyre bird mimicing a violin playing Bach, you have no understanding of it. The experience is something by your nature you are with out any knowledge of, an intelligence you are cursed to lack.

              [–]HoldenMcGroin_53 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Oh shit, the author came to play

              [–]hairychillguy 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              I'm curious as to how this has influenced your political views. Do you relate more to conservative views because you care only bout helping yourself?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 3 ポイント4 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              I don't really pay attention to politics, mostly because I see almost every party as equally terrible in its own ways.

              I usually vote based on what I think is best for the UK at the time as a country.

              [–]ChelseaOfEarth 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Do you think you'd be able to recognize if you were getting out of control, such as getting close to killing someone?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              After having therapy, yes. I'm much better at controlling my impulsiveness and aggression these days.

              [–]Violinjuggler 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Do you/have you played a musical instrument? Do you get pleasure from it?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              I used to play the keyboard for a while. I enjoyed it.

              [–]whiffypants 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (4子コメント)

              Thanks for doing this AMA! You've spoken at length in regard to your relationships with others and your reactions to them, but what I am interested to know is how you deal with your own pain and anger.

              You mentioned your father was physically abusive; were you able to stand aside from your own suffering at his hands in the same way you are able to remain separate from the suffering you have inflicted on others (your sister, the bird, etc) or were you able to have empathy for yourself in what you were experiencing? There's a time element to this as well: are you able to look back upon the child you were and feel empathy for her, even if you could not feel empathy for yourself at the time?

              I have known several sociopaths, but this is the thing I could never understand with them, so your answer is greatly appreciated.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              I felt violated, abused and angry as a result of the rape and abuse. Granted, I think it impacted me less than others as most who are abused at a young age feel that they were 'betrayed' by their parent.

              I don't understand what you mean by 'empathy for your past self', I see myself as one consciousness all along my timeline, so my past self is me, I care about myself and my own happiness.

              That said, if you were to get a version of myself from another universe and ask me to kill her, even if she was identical to me, I could do so without any problems. (So long as it didn't have any significant negative consequences for me.)

              [–]whiffypants 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              I don't understand what you mean by 'empathy for your past self'

              That's okay because you answered it: "I see myself as one consciousness all along my timeline, so my past self is me..." What I was referring to is the state of being in the present: often, the state of being under suffering is very different than the state of being when one is not (iow, when the suffering has ended) and the human response to each state is different, not least because of the neurotransmitters involved.

              You're right about the "betrayal" thing; that is huge. Are you saying that you did not feel betrayed, in the sense that you never had the expectation of relationship from your abuser(s), or that you felt betrayal - perhaps intellectually - but it was lessened by your condition? I would be interested to know, if you have the time.

              Thank you for your honest reply. I wish you well.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              I didn't feel any form of betrayal for my father because his abuse started before I could truly understand the concept of trust. I never trusted him, so he had no trust to betray.

              I think he abused his position as parent, in the same way a prison guard may abuse his post to watch over criminals. But other than that, my hatred for him comes from the fact that he caused me physical and emotional pain.

              [–]jjdmol 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              1. What compelled you to do this ama?

              2. Negative emotions of others don't affect you. I assume the same would hold for positive ones? F.e. can your mood improve by seeing others being happy, or by being in a room where people are in a great mood and get infected by it?

              3. Kittens. Can you go aww at baby animals?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              1. People kept asking me to. I figured I'd so it because it's entertaining and allows me to be more self-aware.

              2. I don't care if someone is happy or unhappy unless their happiness is tied to some potential value for me. E.g. If them being unhappy means they won't drive me somewhere.

              3. I appreciate 'cuteness' as an aesthetic but I wouldn't feel it would hold me back from killing a 'cute' animal.

              [–]the_Phloop 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              What is the biggest animal you could realistically fight (and win) using only your bare hands?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              A wolf, although it would hurt like fuck and I'd have to get lucky.

              [–]changleeLTC 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              I have a question, you answered earlier that you once killed an animal and that it left you with a sense of control. So my question is if you enjoy video games in general or where you can find that kind of power? Like does violent video games give you some sort of relief or feeling of power? Thanks for doing this AMA btw!

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Games sometimes give me a sense of power, depends on the game in question though. There was this game on the Gamecube years back where you played as this giant yellow man who could turn into a devil. That game made me feel powerful in that I could decide the fate of my little island on a whim.

              Violent video games are highly entertaining to me, I regularly play Yandere Simulator because I have a thing for circular saws.

              [–]HypnoHoarder 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Do you have any insights on how to detect a person with the disorder? Can you detect them easily?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Only if you're a psychopath yourself. Otherwise you'd only know if you were looking for a long period of time, ignoring their words and focusing only on their actions.

              [–]nionvox 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (3子コメント)

              What do you think of fictional psychopaths, like say, Hannibal Lector or Patrick Bateman? Do you identify with some parts of them?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              Bateman isn't realistic at all. Hannibal is alright but a little bit too Hollywood dramatic for me.

              The movie psychopath i relate to most is Lisa from Girl, Interrupted.

              [–]nionvox 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Interesting. How do you relate to Lisa?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Having been through the psychiatric system, I'm aware of how fucked it is. I also like how Lisa clearly displays a disregard for social norms without having to resort to murder to display it, the Ice Cream Parlour scene is a prime example.

              [–]ApacheNectar 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              Do you ever laugh/find things funny? I'm guessing you can't laugh out of happiness.

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Yes. I don't know what you mean by 'laugh out of happiness', I only laugh when something is humorous.

              [–]hammerheadquark 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (2子コメント)

              Thanks for doing this. It's pretty interesting. Two questions:

              1. You mention you wouldn't want to feel empathy. But you also mention that you don't commit crimes because that would violate your philosophy. And you know you'd go to prison and be bored there. Are you worried that won't always be sufficient motivation to not hurt others?
              2. (Since you mentioned Psycho-Pass) Would you be a part of the Sibyl System?

              Also, you being an author reminded me of this (she is an author too): https://www.psychologytoday.com/articles/201305/confessions-sociopath

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              1. Sometimes. It really depends what happens in my life, I've had a few times where I've thrown my philosophy out of the window temporarily. The realisation that the majority of people are of no use to future technological development based just on likelyhood is the most dangerous threat to my philosophy falling apart.

              2. I don't know. I think I agree with Makishima's sentiment, I enjoy being an active player of the game too much to just stand over it, watching.

              [–]MiscellaneousShrub 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              What sort of tells or other giveaways would be useful in identifying other people like you?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 2 ポイント3 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              Actions over a long period of time not aligning with words. So someone saying they'll always be there for you, yet over time they're only there for you when it benefits them directly or indirectly.

              Other than that, psychopaths are often considered 'highly empathetic' by those they're manipulating. We often manage to gain trust quickly.

              [–]Truekinz 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              1. Is there anyway for the average person to recognize a psychopath?

              2. Can you give an example of a time when you emotionally manipulated someone?

              3. You say the ideal ratio in society would be 96% empaths, 4% psychopaths. How does it help the machine to have psychopaths at all?

              [–]HarmlessKitten[S] 1 ポイント2 ポイント  (0子コメント)

              1. Actions over words over a long period of time. I've answered this in more detail elsewhere.

              2. I convinced my highschool friend that his girlfriend was cheating on him. They broke up and me and her got together later. I did this by stealing her phone and sending 'accidentally mis-sent' texts to his phone.

              3. I think that psychopaths act as a motivator for society. We think with a cold logic and often lead when others are too afraid to.

              [–]mufflekid 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              You've mentioned that manipulating others and watching them, hmm, experience negativity is entertaining for you. Is the opposite also true? Or is it less interesting to see people experience positivity? Do you feel, in this regard, that emotions like these (sadness, anger) are more complex than positive emotions (happiness)?

              Edit: relevant article

              [–]Usertwothree 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              You've mentioned elsewhere on this thread you suffered abuse as a child... do you think that early onset emotional or physical abuse could encourage the development of ASPD, or do you think we are just born the way we're born? Don't mean to prod into your own personal history, no need to answer personally... just curious on your take on the "nature v. nurture" debate.

              Also, is there anything you see empaths doing that you simply CAN NOT understand, even from a purely logical POV?

              Thanks for doing this!

              [–]Abrahamliu765 0 ポイント1 ポイント  (1子コメント)

              What's your outlook on religion?

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