Alright fellas, so here's my story. The mother of my child left me 4 years ago. After she left I turned into something. Idk what but I was sleeping with woman left and right but at the end of the night, I was still feeling lonely because of her. I still think about her(hard not to when you see her every freaking week) shes happy with another man and I'm just like idk, hurt? Bitter? Salty? Idk but I feel something. During our "break up" two years later I got into a relationship with a great gorgeous girl, I ended that, broke her heart, I cheated on her like 4xs. I've turned down many great potential woman to be in my life and Idk why. Is it wrong for me to know what I want and turn down what I don't? I'm "dating" this one girl who can be my gf but idk, she doesn't make my cells dance. I don't look forward hearing from her but she's a catch but I don't want to jump into it because my interest is not fully into her, am I wrong? I feel like I was meant to be alone forever or I just don't know how to love anymore after the mother of my child left me. I have no job and deal with depression. All I do is study and hit the gym to lift heavy ass shit. But is something wrong? I feel like I lost interest in love. I do feel lonely all the time but feel like I lost it. Just yesterday I had a girl tell me everything I did wrong with her and how I wasted her time and I was just like, where is this coming from? That was years ago. I apologized and told her I was in a dark place and dealing with a break up . Please fellas help me out.