Hey gents,

I'm a little hammered right now but I really need an outlet and I can't tell anyone. I'm semi-recently 20 which in the UK means I can totally fuck up my life already which it appears I've already managed to do.

I met some chick who found me funny at a bar and slept with her, we ended up sleeping together after she told me she was on the pill, so I used the pill out method which I know what fucking retarded of me but I'm fucking retarded.

Anyway she just told me she's pregnant, I don't know if I can believe her as shed allegedly just got out of a relationship by the time we hooked up and the pullout method has served me before.

Luckily she's said she'll get an abortion, I insisted on going with her to 'support' her but she's refused. I'm not sure if this is just a cry for attention and it's all bullshit (she's turned up outside my door before uninvited).

Either way I feel completely fucking helpless right now, I'm not ready for any of this and there's fucking nothing I can fucking do about it.

I know this is all my fault guys. I've been lurking here for a couple of years now (I delete accounts regularly), but please have mercy or some advice or just some kind words. I didn't realise how right you were, this is fucking unbearable.

From now on MGTOW all the way I swear it. I went to two separate shops on the way home to buy enough aspirin (I'm allergic anyway so if I OD it should be a finishing move) for an emergency case scenario and I'm liquor red the fuck up but I just need someone to talk to right now.

Sorry for rambling and if I'm incoherent I'm just trying to liquor myself through this.