I've been broken up with her going on 5 months now. I bargained that I just wanted to fuck her again so I tried texting her just to see if she was down. After no reply I started thinking.... and thinking.... unknowingly I reset the process of becoming MGTOW. I simped out and I texted her all this crap about how much I missed her but I actually meant it. Then I got a threat from her new boyfriend. I was gonna fight him. One way or another I was going to fucking kill this guy. I know I could take him and I would smash his fucking head in. But before I replied anything suggesting that it hit me. "Wait, wtf am I doing??" I told him to fuck off and she wasn't worth it, and that was that. Except I unknowingly awakened the simp that once loved her. It's been a few weeks since then and all that progress I made before I told her all that went to shit. I thought about her and her boyfriend and how he was fucking MY woman. That it was so easy for her and I never meant anything to her (shit I already knew because of you guys but couldn't accept). Then I broke down and tried to hang myself last night. I panicked and kicked until I found something to stand back up up. I pulled the rope off crying and gasping as I clutched my throat. I fucked up bad guys I don't know how I can get back on the path.