After 30-something years of trying to land a girlfriend and trying to have a sexual encounter, I finally did it. Women had rejected me since my late teens. For a good while recently, I thought my reliance on porn was the problem, so I tried "No Fap" numerous times, going up to 90 days without porn, masturbation, or orgasm. Still women would reject me.

In recent months, I noticed that women seemed to reject me because of my lack of relationship/sexual experience. I dated about roughly 10 to 15 women last year--and I constantly got rejected. I was too honest with them. But out of respect, I kept telling them the truth: that I'm a virgin, that I've never really had a serious relationship.

So I said to myself that I would lie to the next woman I dated. And I did. I told her that I DID have experience and had multiple serious relationships in the past. I made up stories and told her what she wanted to hear. And on our second date I boned her. She seemed madly in love with me (or with the image I created of myself) in the subsequent week. Then I disowned her.

So that was all I had to do. People always told me to "Be yourself! And be honest with women!" But that was all bullshit. I realize women just care about how much social power you carry (or appear to carry!). I just wasn't performing the part well for them. They seem so shallow to me now! But, hey, I can be just as shallow--I wouldn't want to date some fat chick.

Still, this whole dating game seems so trivial to me all around now. It's so mechanical and animalistic, How can I lie and put up a facade to attract some chick? I really just feel like going my own way now.