Relationships you've had with women were never real, they were all in your mind, stories and rationalizations you've told yourself. Women only give enough to make you think about her, and you'll start building the rest yourself, women will give her attention to you every now and then to sustain and maintain the illusion you have created for yourself.

It's like a plant, they give you the seed, you grow it, they water it now and then they harvest the fruits of your illusion. The best lies are those you tell to yourself.

Maybe that's why you see old women growing plants in "their" backyard at their old age..