I want to preface this by saying that I'm a female indie film producer with three "urban" features to my name. These projects collectively dumped millions of dollars into infamously poor "minority" neighborhoods. I'm not uneducated or from a poor background, quite extremely to the contrary.

So what went wrong?

Let's examine that, because I'm not proud or happy about this, at this moment in time I'm actually pretty depressed. To the "liberal" establishment:

• You taught me political correctness, and at first it was just about being a good, civilized person, and that was awesome. I watched as over the course of three decades, you floundered with your terminology (retarded -> mentally handicapped -> mentally challenged -> cognitively impaired -> special needs -> ?). I realized that this is a deliberate linguistic confusion: if people can't keep up with the constantly evolving PC language, they are suddenly "oppressors" and those they mislabel are "oppressed". I also watched as this system of linguistic confusion was used to bring all non-white groups together under the banner of colored people oops sorry that's the bad word, here we go: "people of color". Much better. I watched as you normalized an economic invasion on our southern border as merely "undocumented immigrants". I watched as you deceived and undermined our society and I never realized just how much damage it did until today.

• I bought into the scheme of not judging a race by it's individuals or vice versa. And then I watched as you demonized and humiliated my race and by extension my family based on historical deeds committed by my race and the deeds of present day individuals. That's about the time I started to think "Hey, this is kinda bullshit." Even then, I tolerated it. I watched as you taught me that "we are all equal" while giving preferences to people without my skin color in the name of diversity. I even nodded my head when I was told that this is because these people bring a unique background and perspective to the school/workplace. It wasn't until my lawyers told me about "disparate impact" which is that even if my intent is not racist, if I'm not hiring minorities in sufficient numbers, I can be sued. That's when I realized I had been conned. And that was probably the first time I thought in terms of my own racial interests, which had been previously brainwashed out of me since childhood.

• I bought into your idea that it was the cycle of poverty that keeps minorities down in America. And I watched as statistics came out that showed that black and latino crime was either cultural or biological, not socioeconomic. And I watched as you backpedaled into the "institutional racism" explanation. And then this morphed into "white privilege". I watched as you put the blame for the failings of other people on the shoulders of my race, and my family and simultaneously minimized the success of me and others with my skin color as something we didn't completely "earn". Again, I once again began to feel a kinship for people of my race, something I hadn't felt in my entire life. But somehow, you managed to force me into it.

And so, after being sick of being tacitly called a racist, I looked for things that could shift that blame from me. I peered into the forbidden abyss of race and IQ statistics. And in trying to prove that I was not an "oppressor", I became an actual racist who believes that the races are simply not equal. I won't say that any race is superior, because that is subjective, but I can't ever go back to the naive world I lived in. I just wanted to write this to spit in the face of anyone who ever propagated any of these lies. I am disgusted at what I have become and yet I am proud to have seen through the egalitarian bullshit.

I don't hate black people. I don't hate hispanics. They are what they are. The only people I hate at this particular moment in time are the people who purposely deceived me my whole life, who ironically were overwhelmingly white upper-class liberals, and who have forced me into this corner.

I can't dare talk about this in real life, so I'm putting it here. Feels good to get off my chest. Bring on the downvotes.

I'll leave you with these fascinating homicides rates per 100,000 population

Source: Bureau of Justice (2006)

Household Income	Asians	Whites	Blacks
<$10,000	3.2	7.2	32.6
$10k-25k	2.6	4.1	34.8
$25k-40k	1.7	2.5	28.1
$40k-55k	1.9	3.2	26.3
$55k-70k	1.1	2.7	21.9
$70k-85k	1.2	1.5	16.4
>$85,000	0.8	1.9	15.4