Hello fellow MGTOW. I am a 16 year old Junior in high school. I am glad I have found your message, although I am not new to it. I have been a MGTOW since 14, after the first woman I dated broke up with me. I was so confused. What the hell had I done wrong? I felt sorrow, and the only thing to comfort me was a shitty Yamaha FG something acoustic that I learned how to play by myself. I taught myself the blues on that thing. Then, as I was watching a guitar lesson one day, a video popped up on my recommended. It was a MGTOW video. I was feeling depressed and vulnerable at the time, and I needed a way to reason with the fact that the girl that I was falling in love with had suddenly cut me off. It all started to make sense. Then I realized that she was just a shallow female, and was pissed at me that I hadn't kissed her while we hung out until 3 in the morning. She held my hand, sat close to me and spoke in a lovely tone close to my ear. It made me feel great, but I didn't reciprocate the favor. I guess I've just been a Red Pill for my entire life, and I'm proud to say that at this point, I could go my entire life without kissing a woman, or loosing my virginity, although this could be a problem because I'm a really good looking guy (way above average for my age, women in their 20's look at me because I look that good) and my dick tends to do the thinking sometimes. Which brings me to the reason that I'm writing this post in the first place. I know many of you on here don't think that a woman can love a man for who he is, but as a guy who experienced this first hand, I can tell you that's not true. I'm not sure if that girl was falling for me just because of young age, but I can tell you that she was, before I pissed her off. Guys, I spent an entire night with this woman practically on my shoulder, and I didn't understand why. She had more money than I did, she was more popular, had a better personality and did more things. I was shallow at the time. I played lacrosse, and that was about all I was interested in. I played guitar a bit but I didn't tell anyone, not even her. I really think that women can love. I really do. I felt something with her, something that I haven't felt in years. That warm, comforting feeling in your chest. I stopped feeling love after we broke up. But yesterday, it came back. You see, there's this girl that has a crush on me. I could tell that she wanted me to make a move on her during the semester elective that I was in with her. And I'm not going to lie, I was attracted to her. I had a case of oneitis, but I'm not really attracted to any of the girls at my school in the first place because I have standards, and she met the standards. So I don't consider it oneitis, as in my eyes, she is the only option I have. My red pill knowledge made sure that I didn't ask her out, and that it was in my best interest to stay single. But yesterday, she gave me this look when I saw her. The semester is over, so the chances of a relationship with her are probably over as well, as the semester classes switched. She knew this, and gave me this half sorrowful/half disappointed look. The hot, quiet, muscular guitar player didn't make a move on the hot, quiet, curvy athlete. That look she gave me made me feel like I had dropped my own heart and shattered it. I realized how big I'd fucked up with (probably) the closest thing to a NAWALT. Then, ever since this indecent, I have purposefully avoided her. But I can't get around this feeling of love. I don't even have anyone, and I can feel it. It came back. Two years of not feeling a thing and suddenly it's back. Gentlemen, I'm not sure what to do? Do I live the rest of my life out by myself, or should I give women one more chance? I won't ever get married, the idea in general doesn't appeal to me, but now I have this desire to just lay down with a woman that I love, and just talk, fuck, and essentialy forget about the world around me. Should I really give this another go? Or should I live out my life as essentialy a MGTOW since birth? Never touching, fucking or kissing a woman in my life. Sorry for such a long post, but my entire life is coming back to me again, and I have a lot going through my mind. Thanks for your help gentlemen.

TL;DR Should I live my whole life never touching, fucking or kissing a woman