My soon to be ex-wife wanted to hang out this evening because she happened to be in town. I agreed and she drove over to my apartment. When she got here I was eating a sub that I had bought before she called me. She was upset because I was eating and I didn't save my appetite because apparently she wanted to eat out with me. (woman logic, not communicating what they want and then getting angry with you for not following along with their uncommunicated plans)

I asked her if she wanted the other half, she said no. I asked her if she wanted me to put away the other half to go eat with her, she said yes. Then she said "You ruin everything, even eating out. You're so rude."

I told her I wasn't rude and I set her straight, then she made a comment about how she's respectful at least and I let her know that lying to her family about seeing me was disrespectful and she had no platform to preach about what respect is.

She let me know she was protecting me from her family. I asked how. She wouldn't tell me.

Not wanting to get myself in any legal trouble, I asked her again and said "If you don't tell me then I guess I'll just have to go back home," to which she retorted "Then go back home!"

I said "Okay!" and turned around and promptly walked right back home. I heard an audible ANGRY sigh as I was walking back home but I don't give a fuck anymore. I walked in, got on my computer, and played some games with my brothers for the entire evening.

She made it clear that she was probably not going to be back in town for a long time.

I truly couldn't give a fuck and I found myself feeling free from not having to apologize for shit I never did or was never my fault. No more shitty dinners together, no more nagging and bitching at me, no more having to be a slave to her.

This is a huge step for me because I would usually do everything for her, but seeing as she doesn't give me the respect or decency a normal human would, I just lack the drive, coupled on with the stories I read from here.

I know this is a victory for myself to becoming a MGTOW, but why do I still feel sad? It's an unshakable feeling...

Thanks for reading brothers, it will have been a month since she's left on 1/4/2017, and every day is getting easier. Don't know where I would be now without you guys. Probably pretending to be a religion I don't believe in whatsoever and being miserable still.