As mgtow, we determine our own worth. How do you determine your worth? What are your standards? What oaths do you take? Do you believe in inherent worth or do you believe your worth must be earned? Why? What is your story?

 

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I have very high standards for myself. Self-actualization is the goal. Any activity that does not contribute to this goal, would only serve to degrade and dilute my worth. If I were to abandon my goal for the seductive world of irrationality, impulses, and the instant superficial release, then I would have become worthless. It's a double-edged sword, but hard limitations have to be put in place to surpass my limits. I do this because I have a terrible lack of inhibition caused by escapism, due to years of depression.

 

I have always sought greatness and am never satisfied with anything I do. I don't celebrate birthdays because growing up is not an accomplishment. I didn't go to my graduation because anyone can graduate. Anything less than greatness, is nothing. There is a pain that comes with wanting to self-actualize, but not doing so because of the animal inside. There is a cognitive dissonance of the animal and the thinking spirit. Both trying to take control of the human host. The irony is the animal is easily satisfied by the pointless entertainment. The satisfaction persists onto the human host and undermines the thinking spirit. I seek to disintegrate the animal and have the thinking spirit take over. Society has always seen me as the disposable male, a menace to society; it would only be fitting if I turned into a cold calculated monster. A being who has disengaged from the culture of inane superficiality. The lights, the colors, the sights, the sounds, all of it, empty and meaningless. Real meaning, real worth, comes from the pursuit of intellect and evolution of the self. I have rejected the need for women, family, and friends; I have nothing in this world, but my mind. I prize it as my worth. If I can't change myself, then it just means that I wasn't smart after-all, therefore, I become worthless.

 

I have always believed that you can overcome irrationality with rationality. It is sort of my mission statement. The breakdown of any problem will provide a solution of enlightenment. That all it takes is the alterations of perspectives to transform the human. Perhaps, this is a perspective I choose to hold for now. An ideal set as a standard to aim high. A strong push to get over a certain threshold. I am not certain it will work, but constant analysis, experimentation, and adjustments will be made. I would love to see input of advice or differing perspectives.