So i had like 5-6 girlfriends i dont really remember. I just thought of it yesterday... In the end back then when i was a "natural" i had a good time with women because they were younger and hornier. I struggled at high school to find something that i really like and the women just tryed to push me more into it. I hated that time and as a result i treated them like absolute garbage. I was an asshole 24/7 because i was stressed from that shit.

Im not the best looking person but im tall and i always had a no fucks given attitude and lifestyle.

Next thing was my PUA phase where i thought i could take LTRs and other shit to the next level. While it worked wonderfully i also was amazed what mindless creatures women are. I used the game like a retard and it worked. I have to laugh about it so hard now. I mean one evening i just talked about penises all the time and used shit like "oh the noodles we made today were tiny penises they fit me" and the women were "grosses out" - at the end of the evening they wanted to have sex.

When you see how the "game" works you feel like ... fucking shit they are like animals! So i quit the game and improved my "LTR" - while it "worked" it only was a bandaid. The breakup was horrible. The whole story sucked so bad back then i became kinda MGTOW without knowing it. I was totally against any kind of LTR because i felt like the pattern - no matter how much work and effort i put into being the best version of myself and doing cool stuff in the relationship - is always designed to fail because she will cheat on you sooner or later.

If you dont believe that youre a fucking idiot. You cant fucking win unless youre ahead all the time, have the money&the status and even PIMP her aka you cheat on HER!

So i kinda had like "lots of plates" as TRP would say. The thing is it even grossed me out too. Same patterns all over again until i just monked away from those whores. Its always.......the.......fucking.........same..........shit.