Keep in mind that it's hard for everyone. Every guy here has that chance to pull the trigger and there's nothing wrong with that if you've struggled all your life without any success but keep in mind that suicide is the last straw, you could always do it but you can never come back.

Stick around, explore any and every possibility of life, travel, engage in social interaction with like minded people, learn and grow.

If you really push yourself in the right direction, and I mean truly give it all that you got towards success then I doubt you'd want to off yourself anymore. All it takes is the proper perspective and correct certain realization to finally free yourself from your mental torment.