Long time lurker, first post.

I dated this girl for 8 years, who i met online, for a long time a struggled with depression, suicide attemps, bad family, the list goes on, i met her on a site about mental health.

she had all kinds of problems, she was depressed, boderline, addicted to pills, was unable to finish her college, and was dumped by her third boyfriend

(note, i'm a black guy and she was a white girl, i'm also a ex-mode (now i'm a software engineer) and muscular/attractive guy, this will be important in this topic later)

so me, the big stupid white knight that i was , was more than eager to climb on my horse, and ride on to save the damsel.

during 8 years of relationship, i endured her moods swings, her childish behavior(playing tantrums in the street, crying),endured LONG periods of not having sex, due to her libido being so low because of medication( or so she said..) helped her move on from her past relationships, helped her lose weight by taking her to the gym, i helped her finish college

after this really hard time, her life starts to get better, and then she gets in touch with her old female friends that have dumped her when she became a depressed problem.

then she starts to tell me that her shrink tells her that she needs a "real man",a doctor, a lawyer, and she starts to say that she does not want to marry a black guy, nor having kids with me, and her family is ashamed of her being with me (after 8 years, she only tells me this on the last, when the big stupid black guy helpes her get out from hell)

so, she hook up with ther female friends, and all they are single, landwhales who like to go to parties and travel chasing dick

i was a purple piller, but seeing the kind of friend she had, it would not take long to her hypergamy to kick in, and to her to go live this sex and the city lifestyle her friends still wants

so i start to go monk mode, bought a house away from the city, start really lifting, getting in shape, making my own businnes of software development, and helping my old mother.

and then she drops it, she "does not love me anymore", and needs to move on, and she said that she was sorry that se used me, that she liked my body and my company, but she's getting old and needs a "good man" to marry

8 years of my youth, helping a girl recover from all sort of problems, got used like a human dildo a emotional tampoon, and then discarded.

and the ice on the fucking cake? the bitch had HPV (not hiv), HPV from her past relationship, that she only told me 7 YEARS AFTER (i did all the test for dst's, hiv, 8 months after i broke up with her, thank the gods i'm clean, but still)

i didn't even replied the bitch,

i never felt more dirty, more used, more not human at all as i felt with this woman, today i have total disgust toward women in general.

female nature is ugly hope that my mistakes can show the younger folk to stay away, its not only the college prom queens that act like this, AWALT AWALT

don't forget AWALT

one more time AWALT