It seems like I’m fucking something up. To u/scorched_throwaway yes that was my reply to you. I’m new to reddit other than lurking and I have a suspicion that my replies to comments aren’t visible. If anyone has advice for a newbie it would be greatly appreciated.

I really appreciate all of the feedback (positive and negative) I’ve received so far. The nine years between the events in this story and the present time have allowed me to heal and disassociate myself from the past. I’ve learned my lessons and rebuilt myself from the ground up. With that being said, I’m about to show you me at my weakest. Many of the people in my life know the bare bones of my story, only my father and my best friend have heard the dirty details. I’m about to get into the worst of it now and I think the lessons that can be learned from my life are worth exposing myself. During the height of my internal crisis I was seconds away from taking my own life. This story is my own version of a divorce rape.

This is MGTOW and we pride ourselves on self-reliance. This is as it should be. In my opinion self-reliance in all matters is the quintessential trait of masculinity. My need for outside validation is at the core of why I got into this mess in the first place. With that being said, I’d like to take a moment to thank my dad and my friend, and brother from another mother Quetzalcoatl. You were there in my darkest hours, when I forgot who I was, you were there to remind me. I hope that neither of you fall as I did, but if you do, I will be there for you as you were for me.

To the MGTOW’s out there that weren’t fortunate enough to have a good father figure or a support group like I had………I’m sorry. I’d like to think that I would have made it without them but If I’m being honest I can’t say for certain that I would have. I just read a post here about someone who was going to end it all. I really hope you didn’t do it my friend, but if you did I hope you find peace. To all the other young men reading this, make finding quality male friendships your priority. As you get older, you will find that women come and go, but men bonded through time and struggle will stick together. Alright I’m done ranting for now, I’ll get back to regaling you all with my shit-show.