An affair from a year ago said to me she could have never gotten together with me. I told her thats bullshit and that i heared that often. I asked why because i felt most women would fall in love with me at some point but not her. So i asked out of interest.

She said "I dont know i feel like youre too smart. You seem like you would walk away from me when i would try to bind you. I always felt scared by your intelligence. I felt like you always knew how i would do it (make me fall in love) and then you pulled away. You would always hide most of your information from me and keep me away"

Yep. Thats right! Did this instinctly after my "dream LTR" crashed horribly and i needed 2 1/2 years to recover. The breakup was the biggest RP there is. Of course i didnt even really reply on that lol.

Another woman also wrote a similar thing in a letter. It sometimes almost gets you. Dont let it get you. Stay free as a bird! You can still have sex with women if you cant afford hookers. But realize for them love is just a game. If you play it better - they quit.

Its when you commit, the alpha in you needs to quit. I know its stupid ego validation bullshit in essence and i hate talking about this because it spikes envy. But for me it just confirmed that i always knew better - in my gut.