I don’t know what to say… Mostly I am lost.

In my late teens; I was a lifeguard, teaching kids to swim, saved a few lives, became the youngest Red Cross Instructor Trainer. I taught others how to save lives. I taught EMTS and Fighter Fighters on how to save lives and rescue others. I couched the Special Olympics and developed my own classes on exercise and therapy for the mentally handicapped.

I spent my 20’s trying to achieve the American dream; a wife, a great carrier, nice home, and fancy cars. While trying to keeping my family up front; I thought I was doing right. I rescued many horses and gave them a great end to their lives. I healed and helped many who were turned away by others. I gave them love where others had tossed them away.

In my 30’s became a reckoning and a rebirth. My first wife left me. I dove deep into the rescue of physically and mentally abused horses. I worked with so many and gave all my life to them. All of them lived long lives and either died with me crying at there heads or they are still with me today. I have found a new love; a new wife and new life with a new farm where my wife and pony friends can be with me free and live a long and healthy life.

My carrier while in my early 30’s staggered but today I am very successful and many of my colleges-clients look up to me today. I spend most of my day solving the problems most people can’t or turn away. I have brought success to many.

I guess my real problem is going into my 40’s… I’m successful but still feel so empty… I love my wife and farm animals but why the hell do I fell so lost. Did I miss something? Have I not given enough back to the world?

What gives you piece and a feeling you have left an impact into the world?

In the end how do you feel satisfied you did enough… or is that just the long lasting human nature to peruse a giving back to humanity that you just cant quench?

I don’t know and maybe you have seen or done something that has filled that niche. Or maybe it’s just something in time that fills in that I am missing. Or maybe there is just something wrong with me where I never feel giving is enough.

Anyway I hope all is well. Happy travels, Thank you all.