I am more upset than i thought i would be at tonight's election results. I sort of started thinking Trump would win a few days ago when i saw the florida early voting. Everyone was talking about the latino vote there and how it was great for dems... and what i really noticed was the 1 million + more white vote. I figured that was all Trump.

Now... i don't really know how to get my thoughts out. I'm a 20 something white female. I live in a heavy republican state. I've listened to people all around me call obama a muslim, terrorist sympathizer, etc. all day long for 8 years (including family). Tonight i heard a man scream 'kill obama' during trumps victory speech. And what i didn't hear was Trump saying a word against that man. You know he heard it. He could have stopped and said no, this isn't us. But he knows. He knows a huge part of his success came from this type of person.

There were many things i didn't appreciate about hillary. I didn't like the things i read in the emails from the dems. But what bothered me more was the seething hatred trump seemed to breed. I saw it spreading like wildfire. I saw more and more of those around me thinking it was okay to voice their hatred and act upon it, because trump seemed to encourage it. I saw a car with a bumper sticker that suggested hanging obama. And on the news we saw the shirts suggesting to hang the journalists.

I just feel sick. I feel like this dark side of hatred has won tonight. I mean, i'm almost in tears and i didn't think i would care this much. I'm going to miss the hell out of Obama. I'm going to miss the messages of hope and unity. That you can be straight, gay, trans, black, latino, asian, white, old or young and still have a welcoming home in America. I feel like we are going back to when these people feared to be who they are in public. I fear for my rights as a woman. I'm sad for the divide this election has caused among strangers, friends and even family and i'm scared that's only going to fester and grow.

I know not every, and really not most trump supporters are like these types i mention. But it feels like the negative people are the loudest in everything, including this election. And when i don't even hear Trump tell the man screaming kill obama to shut up, well am i suppose to feel different? And then you look around reddit, and there is no grace. everything seems flooded with eat a dick, haha, kill yourself now, etc.

Just feels like we're drowning in hatred now.