Long story ahead. I've wanted to write it for some time, but this post here really influenced me to go ahead and get it done.

I've believed in the MGTOW philosophy for about 2 years now. Met a girl online (she's 26 and from Arkansas, I'm 28 from Texas) on a blogging site. She and I had very similar political and religious views. She is old-fashioned and keeps herself healthy and fit. A huge difference from my true blue pill days when I dated just about anyone that was kind to me.

We began talking in late November last year. January or so, we started getting "serious" (in her words) but she didn't want to officially date yet.

Issues arose when she accused me of being "flirtatious" with some female friends of mine that I knew on that site long before I knew her. I shook it off and kept living, and I continued talking to her.

Around March, we were supposed to meet up. I was going to take a week off work and she was going to come to my place. She canceled two weeks ahead to tell me she wasn't ready to see me yet because she was "so scared" and that she "loved me too much to meet me." Makes no sense, does it? I asked if I could come up and see her. She said "not yet."

Two weeks later, a guy she knew from the same site asked to see her. She said yes to him. She then admitted to me that she flashed him on Skype webcam just a few days before they were going to meet up. She said she had NO feelings for him, but she thought at the time she was "done with me." Funny though, she still hung out with him a few days later. I told her to keep in touch with me because I wanted to know she was safe. First day, I didn't hear from her until 3 in the morning. She told me they went to the bookstore and then hung out at the hotel he was staying at...but that "nothing happened." She apologized and told me she would let me know she was safe the next day.

She didn't.

I then cut her off for not even a day before she messaged me and gave me excuses like "well you flirted with ALL these girls online so I can do whatever I want! But I did NOT do anything with this guy anyway. He and I are just friends."

That blew over and she and I kept in touch (stupid, STUPID me).

Since then, she's had about 4 guys on there hit on her. She likes to sometimes make me angry by making me jealous because she says "it's hot" when I'm angry. The thing I never understood was that she NEVER told them to back off the flirting. I told her she belonged to me (she liked the whole "being owned" thought, or so she told me).

She would sometimes send screenshots of the guys messaging her and calling her beautiful (like "good morning beautiful" and all that crap).

Also odd was that she would send me pics of models and hot chicks...why? "Because it's something that you would like." I KNOW that's a test. If I said "HOT" or something, she would say "see? I'm not the only one you want!", but if I asked her for pics of her instead because I want to see HER, she would say "quit lying! You want them!" Even funnier is when I'd say she wants these guys she knows online, she would tell me to drop it or she'd stop talking to me.

Anyway...I dealt with this crap and I don't know why I did. I know marriage is stacked against a man and I know she promised a lot of good things for being with me if we got a place together, but her behavior is OBVIOUSLY telling me she'd be the typical wife. "Oh I'll cook, clean, and give you all the intimacy you want"...until the ring is put on, then it's all taken back.

Fast forward to today. I was laid off from my high-paying position in Houston, Texas, and "my girl" decided to help me look for work in Arkansas so I could 1) actually be near her and 2) open my horizons a bit. I accepted a job up here in Arkansas a couple of weeks ago and have had her help in staying on my feet. I'll be fair and say she's helped me to THAT extent and she got me a hotel for a few days as well, which was nice (though I'm living in my truck now because I have literally lost everything else). The time spent with her in person was fantastic, and the intimacy was the best I ever had.

But women never forgive, nor do they forget.

She decided to tell me last night that anytime I touched her outside the bedroom it made her "uncomfortable" because she can't stop thinking about "everything I did" in the past. All the "flirting" with my female friends "hurts" her so badly that she just can't STAND to live with it, so she ended it with me and continues to send me screenshots of guys complimenting her and hitting on her up to even now as I type this. She even said she wants to see me suffer for "what I did."

She had me come all the way up here for a revenge game. I don't know what fooled me. Probably her touch, her voice, everything about her...except for the psychotic thoughts in her mind about the "past" as if I had slept with anyone. So I'm now working a job with all of my valuables from my apartment in a storage unit up here, paying for that unit, a car note, car insurance, and of course food as I live in my SUV. It's actually not that bad living in it and has humbled me to an extent (it's taught me I really don't need so much and I could definitely go minimalist and save a crap load of money for myself).

So, the lesson learned here. Not only are women hypergamous monkey branchers, cheaters, liars, and especially emotionally and financially abusive...but they're also the most unforgiving people I've ever known. I've never known a man to not forgive me of a mistake I made in the past and bring it up months later.

If you're not already a MGTOW, stay away from women (yes, that even means the anti-feminist fakers as they are just playing a chameleon role)...and never look back. I know I won't, and thank the Lord I mostly work around men at my current job. Here's hoping it does indeed go from temp to permanent.

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