Hello MGTOW Brothers,

I need your advice. Using a throwaway account. Long-time lurker and sometimes-OP here. Mods: this is slightly off-topic, but bear with me. I'm trying to "Go My Own Way", but there's one catch.

TL;DR: Should I blackmail a bitch who owes me money?

Background: A few years ago, I was the typical Beta Bux Nice Guy, typical in every way. I am embarrassed at how I was then. Since then, MGTOW opened my eyes. This book brought me to tears. But back then, I traveled for business and had plenty of cash. I had a few escorts in Europe during this time, but fell head-over-heels for one girl in particular. She was from one of those 'exclusive' escort websites, and cost a thousand bucks a night. But she was amazing and beautiful and smart and had an ass that tasted like French Vanilla ice cream. Worth every penny. I yearned for the so-called girlfriend experience and paid anything to have it.

Yes, I was a sucker. I know it now. Please don't lecture. We all have our weaknesses.

Fast forward a year later: I'm very invested in this girl (gifts, tips, etc). I took her on a week-long vacation, paid about $12k up-front. But just a few days in, she feigned an illness and left early. And like the sucker I was, I 'loaned' her another $5k before she left. It was clearly understood to be a loan.

Needless to say, I never saw her again (excuses on her part) and never saw a dime in repayment (excuses on her part). In the meantime, I've found MGTOW and see the situation for exactly how it really is.

Just move on? Good advice. In fact, a trusted friend said this to me, and I believed him.

The problem? I need money. I could really, really use the $5k now. Even half.

The real problem? I spent a year stalking her on Facebook and Instagram, and, get this: I even have the 'VIP code' to her escort website (for access to the un-blurred photos). I have screenshots of everything, copies of everything. She used a fake name, but during our time together, I got to her her REAL name (verified) and real phone number.

I am tempted to demand payment, or else create a website that describes her as a whore and a thief. I have images from her escort website. I have plenty of embarrassing photos to post.

I don't want to do it. I really don't. I just want my loan back. I'm MGTOW, but where does one draw the line in a situation like this? If I wasn't facing financial hardship now, I'd just drop it.

Reading MGTOW posts makes me mad. I realize just how much women like this take advantage of men like me (or, the kind of man I WAS). I'm not vengeful.