I didn't like y'all at first, seemed like a watered down RP or something, and I was "happily" in a LTR with a daughter and didn't have the RP mindset.

Well, holy shit. She has pushed me 200 miles past my limit, for the past year. No joke. I finally broke, and for the past month I've been living in my car and at my friends house (who has this amazing 10 who wants to fuck, but I've remained fucking faithful, fuck me dude) more than at our apartment. I got her a car, I pay for EVERYTHING. I got her the car so she could get a job because I only make $2,400 a month, and in Texas that just doesn't work, I'm right below the somewhat comfortable living line.

Well, nag nag, bitch bitch. I'm fucking 21, I got clean off meth and honestly, that life was better than the one I have now. I have childhood abuse PTSD, and it's fucking humiliating in my opinion, because it's so much more powerful than me. She likes to get in my face and scream (REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, fucking autist). Okay not literally like that but it's a lot like it, with words. And she won't stop. She'll attack me, and eventually I hit a black out while I'm just constantly trying to get "stop stop stop" in there. Then she wonders why she gets fucked up sometimes (on the very dark occasion the fight gets that bad quick enough for me not to get out before I lose it).

I can't do it. And of course she has fucking victim complex and narcissistic tendencies or some shit I swear. She warps it any way she can in her own fucking delusional little head, her favorite being "I know you want to fuck other bitches, that's why you're pushing me away" WHILE I'M STAYING IN MY FUCKING CAR BECAUSE I CAN'T GO BACK THERE WITHOUT STRANGLING OR BLUDGEONING HER. And it's funny, because I don't even want to go near that 10 at my friends house. I don't want anything to do with women, she has terrified me, and I just want to live my fucking first adult years happily, while I'm in my prime. Sex has no enjoyment for me, I just want to do what makes me happy at this point. I thought raising a family would give me that enjoyment, and it may have, but this isn't a fucking family.

So, not sure if I have the right idea of what MGTOW is, but if I do it's probably in my future soon. I've let her know, if she screams in my face like that or attacks me one more time, I'm going to let go and hospitalize her and dump her. Fuck all consequences.