Been keeping contact with females on a minimal for a year now, and as a result I have been enjoying more success at the job coupled with great improvement of health and mind as well.

Out of the blue, this young blue eyed blonde appears in my life, and despite of my experience from the last 12 months, it's like every scent of logic is flushed out of every neuron, whenever this girl appears in my stream of thought.

It's intoxicating as fuck. It's like the meat eating plants, luring you in with scents and sights that are impossible to resist - only to devour you alive.

I feel like I'm actively working against every instinct and impulse in my body.

How do people avoid caving in?