I've been with my long-distance boyfriend for officially 2 years. In so many ways he's perfect for me and he just feels right... But that doesn't change the fact that lately our relationship has been so distant because of his work and in a lot of ways he feels like a stranger. I want to say I still love him, but I'm not sure. I look at him (through a screen obviously) and I can really imagine spending the rest of my life with him. But I'm so lonely and miserable now because of the fact that he's never there. The whole reason why he has a job is to make money to come see me, but if he were to see me right now, I wouldn't react the same way as I would've months ago. We'd have so much of our relationship to rebuild to get back to where we were before he could ever come here, if that's even possible to do at this point. And the honest worst part of this is that I am legitimately beginning to believe that I'm developing feelings for another guy. Nothing major, I just think I like him, like a simple crush or whatever (even though that sounds really middle school). I don't even know if he would ever like me. But he makes me happy and he talks to me so much and he really helps with the loneliness. He's so weird and funny and we have so much in common as far as our pasts go, which is something I can't relate to with my current boyfriend (I've had a huge traumatic past and my boyfriend hasn't really been through much of anything in his life). I still think I have feelings for him, and a huge part of me legitimately believes he could be my soulmate. I just wish he didn't feel like such a stranger to me. And I can't stop shaking the feeling that I could be missing something great with this other guy. I know I could be worrying over nothing, because this other guy might never see me that way. But if I'm going to be with someone then I want to be 100% committed, because he definitely deserves that. I feel so lost.