Just everything is so fucking infuriating. If I can I just please get one person to treat me with a tiny modicum of respect. Someone, anyone on earth! What have I done, what EXACTLY have I done to deserve to be treated like shit by everyone around me? Everywhere I look I see these cocksucking motherfucking faggot pieces of shit getting treated well and respected, with people fawning over them and I just give and give and give and give AND GIVE and do everything that other people want me to do and all I do is care about their opinions and THEIR comfort, like a good little house nigger, and people just refuse to give me just a tiny little percent of that back.

Like dude, I don't fucking get it. What do all these other people have but I don't have? What is it that is so bad and so repellent and disgusting about me, why won't anyone just tell me what it is that I'm doing that sets me apart and makes other people think I'm some weirdo who's not worthy of respect? That's all I want, I don't even want to fucking correct the behavior anymore, I just want to KNOW what it is that I am doing that makes everyone dislike me.

I'm fucking 27 years old and never been in a serious relationship. I'm a loser virgin with only one friend, and she's online. Having relationships with other people is BY FAR the most important thing in life. So I can't imagine how much people must look at me with disgust and pity. I will never be normal.

And these fucking girls I've known in school and work, I swear, every goddamn one of them - they just fuck piles of men, starting when they're 13, and they just FAWN over these fucking idiot douchebag men and they stay with them when they're jerks, and when they hit them, and when they cheat, and do drugs and shit like that. What the fuck? I know I'm not amazing, in fact I have terrible self-esteem, but the facts are, at the very least: I've never been to prison, never knocked a girl up or been a deadbeat dad or whatever, never been violent, never drank or done drugs, I'm not morbidly obese or grotesque, I treat people well, I'm not stupid - and yet I can't find ANYONE, while guys WITH those shitty traits somehow have no problem finding girls.

And then these fucking girls have the nerve after those relationships to think that the worthy of being with an actual good man? No, fuck them. If a girl has fucked around with scumbag guys her whole life, and had all of her holes filled up, and turned down good guys for idiots, then she can go fuck off. She just wants to have it both ways: fool around and ignore good guys, but then latch onto one of them as a husband before she gets too old and gross to find anyone.

And I'm disgusted at how society accepts this behavior: promiscuity, cheating, belittling others, abandoning your kids, doing drugs, all the way up through abortion - even that is totally acceptable behavior! Yeah, yeah, I know, everyone is going to paint me as a monster for saying all this stuff, but you know what? I might get angry and rant online, and have bad thoughts, but at least I've never killed a baby - my own fucking child, and then not even had the common human decency to feel bad about it. If any girl has gotten an abortion, I want the worst things imaginable to happen to her. I hope she gets fucking raped with a knife in her pussy and asshole, and then has acid thrown in her face, burning off her eyelids, so she can't even blink or sleep or anything and now she's finally as ugly on the outside as she is on the inside, and be bed ridden, just a burden to her family for the rest of her life.

I really have nothing to live for. Period. All I've ever wanted in my entire life is just to be happy, with a loving wife and friends who care about me, but that is NEVER going to happen so why even bother?

And people wonder why I have some of these problems I do - the question is: why wouldn't I?

(Note: This was just me blowing off steam by being overly dramatic and angry. Don't panic, I am not violent or suicidal or anything like that.)