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I'll never be good enough (self.Incels)

eekkgg が 投稿

I'll never be good enough, I'll never be able at attract anyone, if I ever get a GF it's because there's something wrong with her and she's settling, not because she is attracted to me, there's nothing attractive about me and never will be. I'll never have a job or friends. I'll never be part of things, I know this because I've never been part of things. I'll never beat my anxiety.

People like me aren't in statistics about depression and anxiety becasue we don't seek help, we can't. My body doesn't allow me. We just kill ourselves. There wasn't a single moment I can remember in my entire life when I didn't feel depressed and anxious. Every single memory is tainted.

It's all a blur nothing means anything, nothing's enjoyable.

People told me for years if I try, things will get better. I can't try. Every time I do I make things worse. Things only ever got worse anyway.

I can't remember anything, my mind is degrading, I can't keep information in my head anymore. I can't focus. I forget everything. I'm so slow, so fucking dumb compered to normal people. I even forgot half the things I wanted to write here.

I have nobody, I delude myself into thinking my sister like me but she doesn't.

'Normie' girls who are currently are with someone! Look at you SO! I'll never be 1/10 the men he is. You'd never be with someone me, no matter what I do.

I deserve every bad thing that happens to me. That is how I SHOULD be treated. I'm a coward ugly boring moron and I can't be anything else, it's ingrained in my brain, it's all I am.

I don't even want to have these things I just want to die. I don't care for internet nobodys sending me meaningless messages about how I can talk to the or whatever, they effect noting, so don't bother sending them. I'll read them and then forget all of it in a day, I've read books about these things and they pass trough my brain without effecting anything.

If you knew me you'd hate me, I'm a pathetic asshole. It's impossible for anyone to like me. This world is not for me. I'm just 24 but I'm decades behind.

I know how it ends. I'll drop out of school, I won't get a job, and I will remain alone until I die. By my hands next week or due to natural causes in 60 years, it doesn't matter, I don't care. But I'm probably too much of a weak coward to kill myself.

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[–]RobotNormieKissless Handholdless Virgin 0ポイント1ポイント  (0子コメント)

Going outside is utter torture for me these days. Even at home it's not great. Snapped at my mother earlier. Wish I had a shotgun to off myself

[–]NeosAliusNon-transitioning ugly transgirl 1ポイント2ポイント  (2子コメント)

This is pretty much how I feel. There is no reason for someone to choose me over another person. I'm far too ugly, my job is decent but not enough for people to be okay with, and I'm also a defective person because of my gender identity disorder. I am a failure of a person. My purpose in life is to make other people happy, even if it's at the expense of my own happiness. I'll continue to make people laugh, help others when they need a hand, and be an all around good person until I just can't handle the loneliness anymore. I was feeling alright recently but was once again reminded that I am defective. I have so much love to share and I will never be able to. I deserve it for being born like this though.

[–]eekkgg[S] 1ポイント2ポイント  (1子コメント)

I think you are a good person. I didn't make this post to make people feel bad.

[–]NeosAliusNon-transitioning ugly transgirl 1ポイント2ポイント  (0子コメント)

I try to be. I already felt awful because of something I heard earlier. You didn't do anything wrong.

[–]rosechiffonhttps://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DGUmXBgPvrg 1ポイント2ポイント  (0子コメント)

hey man, we were just talking and everything sounded like it was going well? what happened? :(

[–]protonophore19M slut 0ポイント1ポイント  (0子コメント)

The "brain fog" you're describing is often a symptom of depression, which would tie in with your feelings of low self-worth and self-hate. It could also be caused by other things, many of which could be helped by a trip to the doctor to see what they can do for you. Have you ever pursued this path? Would you consider doing so?

Hang on in there bro, best of luck with your future.

[–]PorphyriosMalikcircles never stop themselves 0ポイント1ポイント  (0子コメント)

I can't remember anything, my mind is degrading, I can't keep information in my head anymore. I can't focus. I forget everything. I'm so slow, so fucking dumb compered to normal people. I even forgot half the things I wanted to write here.

I know that feeling. For two years I spent every day in front of my computer and left my (tiny) apartment only for grocery shopping (which also provided my only "social" interaction apart from visiting my parents every 6 weeks or so) and I could feel myself growing dumber.
The good news is that once I got back into a more social and more intellectually stimulating environment my mental capacities seemed to recover within 1-2 months.

I know that addresses only a small part of your post but I thought I'd mention it because I remember being really worried about it at the time.

[–]endmylifeasap21 KV, 6'4 tallcel 0ポイント1ポイント  (4子コメント)

https://i.imgur.com/hsG6pt4.jpg

[–]RobotNormieKissless Handholdless Virgin 0ポイント1ポイント  (0子コメント)

kill me pete

[–]Incel4Life 1ポイント2ポイント  (0子コメント)

Kill me, Pete.

[–]eekkgg[S] 1ポイント2ポイント  (0子コメント)

Bash my fucking skull in with a hammer, Pete.

[–]canino199719/M/Dead Man Walking 1ポイント2ポイント  (0子コメント)

Kill me, Pete

[–]Dougler900027 non-hateful V 4ポイント5ポイント  (2子コメント)

If you knew me you'd hate me, I'm a pathetic asshole.

But we do know one thing about you, and that's that your asshole ain't pathetic!

Eh? No? K nevermind.

Look man. I know nothing I've said has gotten through to you so far. But I honestly think you've got a lot going for you. I just hope you keep fighting the good fight.

[–]eekkgg[S] 0ポイント1ポイント  (1子コメント)

About my asshole, I'm running out of gold in two weeks, fuck.

[–]Dougler900027 non-hateful V 0ポイント1ポイント  (0子コメント)

Well word on the street is your asshole is the top conteder for the best comment incel award so maybe you'll get the gold medal for that? We can only hope whoever that is goes through with it.

[–]PermaWizRage Against The Normies 2ポイント3ポイント  (2子コメント)

I hate being obsessed with sex. I rarely go a day without masturbating at least 3 times. The catch 22 is the more I become obsessed with sex, the lower my chances are of achieving it due to neglecting real life pursuits like exercise, school, and career. The more unsuccessful I am at getting sex, the more I think about it. It never ends.

When I feel depressed from the belief that I'll never get laid, it makes me lose motivation to graduate college and get a high paying job, because none of that matters if you have to enjoy the fruits of your professional life as a lonely male virgin.

[–]Skeletool77 0ポイント1ポイント  (0子コメント)

You can still go to central or South America to hire a prostitute just to experience it

[–]eekkgg[S] 1ポイント2ポイント  (0子コメント)

I'm not even obsessed with sex. I'm obsessed with loneliness. If I had someone to actually hang out with and do things with, someone who accepts me, someone I can hug and kiss I think i'd be fine. I'd be fine with jerking off and not having sex.

[–]canino199719/M/Dead Man Walking 1ポイント2ポイント  (0子コメント)

I feel this way too. My mind is foggy and obsessed with inceldom. If just one girl would love me. I could tell to myself that I am good enough for her. Nobody loves us incels we aren't good enough for anybody. Most of us in this sub feel this way. I don't know you personally. I can't tell if the way you see yourself is true. The only thing I know for sure is that none of us deserved inceldom. We all started out as innocent nice little children. Life made us incel nobody deserves this. Life is random and isn't fair.