I think that I'm above average attractiveness but I can never seem to find an above average girlfriend. Every girl I've been with has been below average. The only reason I was with them was out of desperation. I would go through a vicious cycle of breaking up with my below average girlfriend in hopes of finding an attractive one, only to get lonely and finally settle for another below average girlfriend. I'm tall, not fat, and my face looks decent, but the market is so over-saturated that I can't get what I feel I'm worth. I'm honestly not even picky. I don't think it's asking so much for a girl who isn't fat and has a somewhat pretty face, but I can't ever find that.

I'm now in my mid 20s and my hairline is beginning to recede. It's all downhill from here. Using dating apps is like window shopping at luxury stores, I know I can never buy it so why look? It's sad because so many of my male friends are in the same boat, they look decent but can't get a decent looking girl. You either have to be insanely lucky or a total 10/10 Chad to stand a chance. I can't stand girls personalities, it always feels so toxic talking to them. They have to constantly be entertained with witty energetic banter or else they get bored and talk to the dozens of Chads they have in their phone. If you actually do manage to date one, they quickly become bitchy and henpeck you.

It's really crushing to realize that the stereotypical happy ever after relationship is a myth. I want to believe it's real but every single experience I have had or have heard of, directly contradicts that. I'm sick and tired of being the "good catch" to some fat sow, and worthless to any girl that I would find attractive. I'm tired of being ignored or laughed off of every dating site I try. Maybe I'm destined to be a MGTOW. Maybe I should just accept it and stop wasting my time and energy.