Hi, I married young and have been depressed for 8 years with this woman. I convince myself that I love her but masturbate constantly to porn and even to cams sometimes. I come from an evangelical religious background and was a virgin before I met her. We had sex before marriage for a year or two but I soon married her and regretted it soon afterward. I felt controlled. Now I am trying to muster the strength to leave. She is crazy and I feel the smartest thing to do would be to leave a note and go. She and her family are something else when it comes to anger. I have trouble conniving my emotional self of the rational and mustering the self esteem and confidence to leave and head Southwest. I need some help. Signed a man who married way too young yet hasn't had children yet....